hibernation

 

Heyaa Bunnies!

Damn, I spent the last 3 days just sleeping.

I am serious.

I have been checking my phone now and then but I had absolutely 0 energy for nothing.

I was just laying in my bed, stood up and ate smth, went to sleep on the couch, ate and went back to bed pretty much on repeat.

Today I kinda "woke up" now haha.

I was cleaning some stuff and watched some nail art videos

Even if it's not exactly my taste in nail art, I love these three youtubers and some of the techniques are very interesting.

Now while my phone is charging I will read some blogs and then I go take a bath while browsing online a bit.

Bai Baii!!

tiny tan get

 

Heyya Bunnies!

I swear I was so sick of our shop being open until 8pm!

You can't do nothing. You get home, take a shower and get to bed...next morning you wake up, get dressed and go to work.

I can go to the tanning studio again  YAYY...

But the first couple days I was at work and now it's closed because of holidays.

I thought I might go to the tanning studio while lunch break, because If I go after work it will be the same thing like when we had open until 8pm.

PLUS I eat at 7...if I go tanning, I won't eat until after 8 and I don't like that.

Especially because I have to go back to my diet.

I gained a lot with all the foods the couple days and weeks.

I really want to reach my desired weight.

Over the 2-3 years I have gained 10kg!!

Mostly because I was eating the same amount of food but am sitting the whole day..uff.

Also having to go back to yoga, the stretching really formed my body well...

oh and oops, I actually just wanted to show you my tanning products lmao.

I ordered one tanning lotion and another fake tanner as well but they will arrive after the holidays I think.

I am also still waiting for my phone case from Ali.

I hate my current one, it's sweet but plain.

I ordered a glittery gold one with animal print...yess.

Well, that's all for now..I was too busy for selfies but the makeup was pretty much the same the days as well so who cares lol.

Oh and I got the notification that my yesstyle order is being delivered the next couple days as well, YESS.

I will now order some nail gems now I think, because I am already planning a valentine nail art and I have seen some crazy angel wings, so I might do a look with this as well.

My top coat arrived but haven't took a pic of it because it is just a bottle, so welp.

Did I say everything now I wanted to say?

Oh yea, and whenever I wash hands my fluffy ball looks like this:

I love my current nails.

I get a lot of compliments as well.

Ok, now I am done I think.

reads of 2024

Heyaa Bunnies!

A last lil post about the books I have read in 2024 <3

Before I start I want to explain a bit how I choose books.

I let them choose me.

Whenever someone asks me what I read I never know how to answer.

One thing is clear: I prefer to read in english.

But when it comes to genre or author I prefer to know as less as possible.

Yes, that's right.

A complete remix with just vibes and guesses.

There are a few that I buy intentional but it's an exception.

I either buy them because of the cover, or because I have seen it in a vid.

So sometimes I see a short clip online with "my top 10 fav horror books" and just put them all on my wishlist without looking them up further.

So I know when I want to read, it will be more horror but beside that I don't know nothing.

I think it broadens your horizon.

When you like a specific genre or type of book it is way to easy to start selecting the books more and eventually you end up buying the same story but different.

With this approach I am exposed to new things all the time.

That also means, that sometimes I won't like it.

Not because the book is bad but it hasn't spoken to me.

It also happened that I got a book I was absolutely in love with and maybe wouldn't have picked if I knew what it was about.

So let's stop talking and get into it.

I wish it was more books but beside work and family, I also have different hobbies of course lmao.

And like I mentioned in my last posts, lately I don't feel like picking up a book.

Tip: I also like to get little books, like approx. 20-30 pages.

You only read for like max. an hour and get back on track without having to commit to a bigger book.

Here are my 2024 reads.

Not in the order I read it.

Sally Rooney Normal People

I think it's a bit overhyped. In general I liked the idea of that book but I was no fan of her writing style.

In opposite, I hated it. It was so exhausting, because it would start new scenes with just "her" and "him" etc. and you don't even know who it is about an after like 2 pages you finally get to know who this scene is about and then have to re-read it.

...

Bora Chung Cursed Bunny

I loved this one! It consists of little short horror stories that are written in a surreal magical way, there are hints of real-life situations and you kinda get what it wants to talk about but it's very open-mindedly written with kinda open ends.

...

Lancali I Fell In Love With Hope

"The love of my life wants to die." - the first sentence and the one I knew about when getting this book.

I first imagined it could be about a tragic love story but it's more about sick kids in the hospital.

I felt like this is a great book for teenagers and young adults and I enjoyed reading it.

...

Maggie Nelson Bluets

This is more or less a collection of "blue" things.

I am kinda shocked about how expensive it is compared to its tiny size.

I thought the way she was talking about the color blue was very poetic.

It is true that some colors have like a meaning or a deep emotion connected to it.

...

Annie Ernaux Simple Passion

Here as well a tiny book.

I personally resonated a lot with the way she wrote about loving that man.

It is very tragic and sad but I related with the things she has written.

It is also kinda a wake up call to take a step back and think about it.

...

Thomas Erikson Surrounded By Bad Bosses

tbh I disliked this book a lot.

I heard about his other books and this one was available and also I thought the title was a bit funny.

However, in the book he describes the 4 "personalities" and matches it to the colors red, yellow, green and blue. I'd describe myself to be more of the red or blue-type of person.

All applied to the working scene. He then explains it more in detail and also how it all relates to the other colors. red with red, red with yellow, red with green etc.

Here is why I disliked it: I think, if you actually took some time as a person, and I hope a lot do, you would naturally realize these things about the people around you.

The person with the ideas, the one who likes to socialize, the one who prefers stability and the one who is more or less a perfectionist.

Considering this, this book was suuuper boring, it stretched endlessly.

Also thinking about the fact that this is supposed the be for MANAGERS.

If you actually managed to become a manager,....and not know these things in this book, oh boy.

...

Agustina Bazterrica Tender Is The Flesh

This book is about cannibalism.

The whole story is so vivid and cruel, it is described in a detail and in a way you would have never imagined. It made me sad. It made me angry.

I was very disappointed at the end to figure out he is an asshole too.

10/10.

Get it.

...

Emily Mcintire Hooked

There is just something I love about dark romance books.

Even if the stories are so damn unimaginative and some plots are so....awkward.

You just have to keep reading it lmao.

This one is a about bad gangster/mafia guy that wants to seduce a rich mans daughter to take revenge on him, but finding out that the whole situation is much more complicated than he knew.

Of course the girl is absolutely naive and loves him.

I loved this one so much I decided to get the others from this series from her.

Like the following:

...

Emily McIntire Scarred

Here it is about a girl getting sent to marry a king to then dethrone him as a revenge for her people, the brother of the king is the enemy.

And they fall in love.

And there are more plot twists.

of course.

Loved it. It wasn't as good as hooked though.

...

Robert Kiyosaki Rich Dad Poor Dad

Very good book if you want to get more into finances.

I think it broadens your pov and after reading it you start seeing more chances.

I also advice to play their game online for free.

Suddenly I realized how many potential sometimes you are wasting.

If done right, you should be able to work on your own finances better.

...

Vivian Tu Rich AF

More or less about the same thing.

I personally prefer the book from Kiyosaki, I don't find Vivian Tu to be likeable but I also realise that she is writing in a way that younger people could relate to her more.

I think the last few pages about financial advice in relationship is completely unasked for.

Also it is way too expensive for the content.

If you want to get into financial advice I recommend getting the one from Kiyosaki instead.

It is shorter and has more information.

...

Eliza Clark Boy Parts

A very well written book.

I haven't seen an idea like this before and it is provoking for sure.

I had a hate-love relationship with the protagonist.

She is an asshole but I also relate to her nonchalant character.

The story has an interesting twist to it towards the end.

...

Sarah Kane 4.48 Psychosis

Idk, I rarely like pieces about depression or mental ilnesses.

A hard pass from me.

It is not very "deep" or interesting, it only pretends to be.

...

Sylvia Plath The Bell Jar

Another overhyped book.

Getting to know that it is a semi-biography about the author who killed herself made me view the story a bit from different eyes but it is bad-written regardless.

I enjoyed the pov from the 50s though.

...

Caleb Azumah Nelson Open Water

I am sorry but another overhyped book.

The story was boring and unrelatable.

It seemed like it is only hyped because of the woke plot in it.

...

Mark Manson The Subtle Art Of Not Giving A Fuck

A humorous approach of reasoning living your life without a care.

In the beginning I enjoyed reading it but I have to admit towards the end it felt like the author tried to stretch it and there wasn't anything "new" coming to it.

Definitely not recommended for softies.

...

Laurie Gilmore Cinnamon Bun Bookstore

A cute little love story. The cover makes it look so innocent but it is not!

It has some smut in it.

I enjoyed reading it and got another from the same author.

...

Ryunosuke Akutagawa The Life Of A Stupid Man

It was an approach to pull myself out of a reading blockage again, tiny book here.

However I have no idea what I read.

Omg, I am the stupid man.

...

Walter Isaacson Elon Musk

I usually never cared about celebrities or CEOs or whatever but I have seen that vid of him in front of an audience where he went "blackmailing me with money? go fuck yourself".

I found that likable and looked him up.

He is an interesting personality for sure and so I got his biography.

It is also the biggest book I have read in the year with over 600 pages, regardless I was finished in less than a week.

It also made appreciate using X more.

Getting to know more about him was another turning point in my growth and I am glad I found out about him.

I think I was distancing myself more and more from society and he pulled me back to life.

I also had to giggle about the part where it went like "Of course I had to buy twitter, how else are we supposed to get trump elected in 2024?" just like 2 days after trump got elected.

My New Years Resolution...

I have already mentioned it somewhere in my last posts.

I want to plan more in advance and also live more.

I have kept to myself a lot now and I miss being the careless person I used to be.

I also want to focus on getting back on track with learning languages.

I want to progress in my Chinese and start really learning Japanese in 2025!!

Also want to save money to go to Japan then in 2026 I guess :)

Hoping my resolution is working as good as it worked for the last year.

I had to be at work in the morning, got home to eat something with my parents and then went for a walk with my dog for over 2 hours!!

Oh how I love these kinds of walks.

Just some fresh air, and silence in nature <33

Now I might be able to read some more blogs but then have to help my mum prepare food for the guests.

Getting used to my new haircolor too <3

I wish you all a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Writing draft

 

Heyya Bunnies!

While preparing another post for my 2024 reads I remembered about some drafts that I had to continue writing.

I currently go back and forth because I don't really know what I want to write about.

I had this one story that I wanted to write but eventually ditched it because I thought it was bad.

Now reading it again, I don't think it was that awful? idk.

So here is the draft if you like to read it (aprox. 15 minutes).

I should have burned this place to ash when I had the chance. My mind is tangled in thoughts of what should have been. I have few regrets, but if there’s one thing I wish I had done, it’s ripping Sylvian’s head from his shoulders and taking his wife while we sat at his cursed table. That wretched excuse of a demon. Now he crawls his way to a throne he doesn’t deserve. I can still hear his mocking laugh, see his smug face as his lackeys dragged me out of Elysis. They don’t follow him out of loyalty, only greed. They despise him as much as I do, yet they bend the knee for coins, as if demons should care about such worthless things. If they understood the power they held, they wouldn’t waste it chasing scraps of wealth. They are nothing but hollow shells, mindless, like zombies.

Imagine that—demons reduced to nothing more than drones. I could crush millions of them with a single strike. They are dirt beneath my feet. How pathetic it is that beings with such power have fallen so far. Is this what the world has become? Even the mighty degrade themselves, throwing away their worth for nothing. If that’s what Elysis is now, I will not mourn its loss. Once a kingdom of strength, it is now a circus of puppets, all dancing to Sylvian’s twisted strings.

Sylvian... I should have taken your gold-digging wife and made her mine when I had the chance. Oh Velora... she wasn’t like the others. Her sleek white hair, her crimson eyes—she knew what this was, understood the lies, the masks. Yet she chose to stay chained instead of seeking her freedom. 

I still see us, Velora, standing on Elysis’s highest hill, the wind in our hair, free at last. Just the two of us, gazing over the paradise we could have built. Just the two of us, tasting the salt of each other’s skin, breathing life into one another. But you—you betrayed yourself. You became a slave to the gold and lies. How I despise you for it. You knew better, Velora. You knew better.

The journey has been nothing but an endless, jagged path, leading nowhere. No matter how far I traveled, nothing around me felt worth the steps I took. Along the way, I stumbled upon a human farm. They welcomed me as a guest, but their hospitality proved to be a torture unlike any I’d endured in centuries. The stench of animal waste clung to the air, but even fouler were the words that spilled from their mouths—a vile sort of torment.

Why do humans cling so desperately to their moral compass? They behave as if their kindness and virtue will grant them more time in their fleeting existence. I could never feel such obligation to others of my kind, especially when their lives are nothing but brief, miserable flashes. What do they have—100 years at most? The first 20 spent as ignorant fools, the last 20 as hollow shells. That leaves them with just 60 years—60 years wasted chasing the approval of others, like cattle wallowing in their own filth.

For a fleeting moment, I thought of freeing those wretched souls, releasing them into their next life. But then it struck me—perhaps their ignorance is their only salvation. They say ignorance is bliss, and nothing could be truer for those damned to the existence of a human.

I wandered deep into a forested hillside, enveloped by a snowy landscape that stole the breath from my lungs. I must confess, it’s hauntingly beautiful here. I’ve never seen snow like this before—each flake glittering like shards of crystal. The ground shimmered like a mirror, reflecting every ray of light from the heavens back to the earth below. The cold air filled my chest, easing the burdens I carried. Ah, the taste of freedom here is unlike any other.

When I reached the peak, I gazed down at the vast expanse spread before me. Below, a lake glistened, its surface catching the light and throwing it across the surrounding land like shattered glass. Where there is water, there is life. Perhaps something of worth lies in wait down there.

I drifted toward the large lake, hidden deep among the snow-covered trees. In the icy waters, purple fish shimmered with an ethereal glow, swimming with a grace I had never seen before. They looked like koi but felt as if they had been pulled from some far-off dream, their scales gleaming with the magic of an unreachable fairy realm. Mesmerizing. I reached out and touched the water's surface, but in an instant, they vanished, dissolving into nothing as if they had never been. I peered into the depths, searching for any trace of them, but the lake remained empty. So, I sat down and closed my eyes, forcing my mind to still. I had lingered too long in the shadow of Elysis, letting my anger consume me. But it’s time to release it, Aethon. Elysis is nothing more than a twisted carnival now, no longer a place for you.

The crisp air filled my lungs as I sought a fragile sense of peace. The wind tugged gently at my long black hair, snowflakes softly touching my skin. Behind me, the trees whispered their secrets, a quiet rustling that soothed the restless ache inside. I heard a faint bubbling and opened my eyes. The fish had returned, and this time, blue ones swam beside them, their scales just as enchanting. If only they didn’t disappear the moment I drew near, their scales would make jewels fit for a king’s ransom—exactly the sort of treasure the greedy whores of Elysis would drape themselves in.

Then, a melody drifted through the forest—soft, haunting, laced with something otherworldly. Sirens, here in the woods? The thought tugged at my curiosity, urging me to follow the sound. The snow sparkled so brightly that it nearly blinded me, but through the glare, I could make out the shadow of a spirit lingering across the lake. Intrigued, I followed the song. As I approached, the voice grew clearer, smooth and melodic in a way only a siren’s could be. The figure seemed human, but something in its presence made me question what it truly was.

"Zodacare paam..." the water beneath the entity whispered, bubbling with a soft, ominous murmur.

"Zodacare zos..." the trees answered with a soft, shivering breath.

"Zodacare paam zos Apep..." Snow fell upon the surface of the lake, each flake ringing out like tiny chimes, sharp and delicate.

Before me stood a young woman at the lake’s edge, her long, sleek white hair cascading to her ankles. White furred, triangular ears perched on either side of her head, adorned with icy blue ribbons. Her pale skin seemed to glow against the glittering snow, soft as if crafted from clouds—untouched by the cold. A long furry tail peeked from beneath her short white dress, swaying gently. 

Time seemed to freeze, the chill air brushing through my hair, urging me to savor the moment. That’s when I noticed the lake. Hundreds—no, thousands—of colorful fish swam in a mesmerizing circle before her, their shimmering bodies an endless spiral of movement.

She turned, her sapphire eyes meeting mine. She stood silent, unmoving. Not human, yet not a siren either. Intrigued, I stepped closer. "Aren't you cold out here without a coat, young lady?" I asked, but she offered no reply. 

"I could lend you mine... if you'd let me," I continued. At that moment, the fish scattered, darting away in all directions, vanishing as quickly as they had appeared. She turned back to the water, disappointment in her gaze, but the lake had gone still.

"You scared my friends," she said, her voice like ice cracking under pressure.

"Your friends?" I echoed, baffled. Who befriends creatures incapable of speech?

I sat down with her at the lake's edge. "They have beautiful scales. They didn’t seem interested in me earlier—perhaps you’d be better company?" Her face remained expressionless, her cheeks full but unmoving, eyes empty yet deep. Without warning, her slim fingers brushed against my jawline, heat radiating from their tips. 

"What are you?" she asked, her touch unnervingly warm.

"What am I?" I mused, a smirk tugging at my lips. If only she knew. "I’m a bird," I lied, my words flowing smoothly, though my dark nature lingered beneath them.

Her head tilted slightly, studying me. "I’ve never seen a bird like you. Your colors are faded... Your soul must be stone-cold and broken." Her voice was soft, almost pitiful. So, she saw my black feathers as faded? Interesting. 

"I am Lyra," she introduced herself. Her name had a taste as sweet as her appearance. 

"And I," I replied, "am Aethon."

"Aethon paam zos Apep," she repeated, her voice laced with a strange familiarity. Angelic words, but no angel stood before me—at least I hoped not, or I'd tear her to pieces where she stood.

"I heard the voices of the forest calling to me. They wanted me to sing to their souls," Lyra continued, her tone soft, hypnotic. She stood up and dropped her dress, stepping into the lake as if guided by invisible hands. The snow fell again, its melodic chime forming an operatic symphony, light reflecting off the water like a thousand diamonds. The fish returned, swirling around her in their magical dance, their scales glinting purple and blue, too beautiful to be real.

She turned around, reaching her hand out to me. "Why don’t you heal within nature’s spirit? I don’t need a coat, but I can guide you to Duat," she offered, her voice soft yet commanding. But Duat was not a place I intended to go.

How could I refuse without rousing suspicion? "I think you misunderstand," I said, my tone measured. "I’m not a faded bird, just from a distant land. Black feathers are... quite normal where I come from."

As if in response, the fish vanished again, the snow ceased its melodic fall, and the light dimmed. "Where do you come from?" she asked, her voice quiet but pointed.

"I come from Elysis," I said, though few know the truth of it. Elysis—a kingdom forged by demons, veiled in the guise of a spiritual paradise for those chasing dreams of freedom and power. They whisper of a land where the impossible bends, where life takes on new worth, but the truth is far darker.

"I’ve never heard of it," she responded, her blank gaze betraying no recognition.

How could she not have heard of Elysis? I must be deeper in these forgotten lands than I had imagined. "It’s a distant kingdom," I said, suppressing my irritation. I forced calm into my voice, masking the growing unease.

Lyra sighed, sinking deeper into the water until she disappeared beneath the surface. I waited, expecting her to reemerge, but she was gone. Who was this strange woman, and what magic bound her to this place?

As the sky shifted to a haunting gray, I realized I needed shelter for the night. After wandering, I found a large tree with a hollow beneath it, sheltered from the snow. It seemed dry, warm enough. I lay down, darkness pressing in from every side, turning the forest into a void where trees and earth melted into indistinguishable black. My eyes grew heavy, and sleep finally claimed me.

In the dead of night, I awoke to the sound of triangles ringing in a steady rhythm. One, two, three. One, two, three. A warped breath echoed through the forest, followed by a high-pitched voice.

I opened my eyes to find Lyra kneeling before me, her skin pale as moonlight, her white hair draped across my legs. She wasn’t clothed, nor did she appear wet, though she had surely emerged from the lake. Her breathing was frantic, her sapphire eyes wide as she brushed her hand against my jawline.

"Aethon... the spirits warned me," she whispered between breaths. "Aethon... you are no bird. The spirits... they warned me."

When daylight broke, I awoke once more, the eerie dream lingering in my mind. But where was Lyra? I hurried to the lake, but neither she nor the fish were anywhere to be found. The forest was disturbingly quiet—no wind, no water, no rustling leaves. An unsettling feeling crept into my chest, a gnawing itch I couldn’t shake. 

I had never cared where I roamed, nothing in this world could harm me. But this silence—it pierced me. Something was wrong. I needed to find something—anything. Something alive. Something moving. Something to ease this growing dread.

I planned on making this story a bit more cruel and dark, however I wanted to keep it more to the lyrical and fantasy side. I am not that good in fantasy, so it is quite unusual for me to write this way.

I want to keep it in the POV of Aethon to give a glimpse into his evil thoughts.

What do you think? Continue or ditch?

Be brutal.

back to blondee

 

Heyyaa!

I actually managed to get enough motivation to bleach my hair yesterday.

This is the first time I will bleach on pre-lightened hair.

I haven't bleached it but I dyed it lighter with a blonde dye.

Every dye has *some* lightener in it because of the vol. it takes for the pigments to get into the hair.

However I knew it still won't be too easy because in the end pigments are pigments.

I decided to bleach roots first und apply it on the lengths section for section.

I knew this is how the roots will end up a lot lighter but I have tried it once the other way around and it was such a mess when the hair is tangled to evenly apply it on the roots.

I rather have the roots a bit lighter and then reapply on the length.

This is the bleach I have chosen.

I am not exactly sure why, I think it was only mainly because at the back of the package was very dark hair shown.

My hair is pretty much the one at the bottom, so I figured it might be enough to go with two rounds of bleach.

I bought 3 boxes because my hair is very thick and I think it has never been as long as it is right now.

I have dyed it two times with my favourite color garnier toffee blonde.

Maybe you can tell a bit but the lengths are a tad bit lighter...that was the first time I dyed it.

I had quite a regrowth when I dyed it a second time and my roots are not that much yet.

I figured that this would be the perfect time to bleach my hair, or else I will get some troubles with having an annoying middle section that will be darker than roots and tips.

I was very surprised when 2 boxes were enough!!

the result is very even.

I was so excited to see this bright yellow (just a bit orangey).

It has lifted so well!! 

It is already such an amazing blonde.

Like I expected the roots would be lighter but still it is very even at top as well.

Like the way I had hoped it would work out.

That way I only have to reapply on the lengths from the middle downwards and blend just a bit to the top.

I decided not to continue today and rather finish the next day.

I haven't applied any conditioner, to have a more "clean" base to work with...which is nonsense now when I think of it.

Bleach is so aggressive it will "bite" through all the products anyway.

This morning I went for a walk with my dog.

I wore a hat to cover up my ungodly roots haha

I think it is always nice to see how well it lifted in the natural light.

I could just slap a level 8 toner on it and call it a day...but I planned a bit lighter :))

It already looked nice but very bright and unnatural of course.

I had only one box left but decided to just risk it..since I only apply it on the lengths I don't need that much and it is just enough.

While I write this I have the bleach on the length again and so far it is lifting pretty well I think.

Ahh I am exciteed <33

It has gotten a bit lighter now on the lengths <33

This was it in the natural light in my room.

The blonde is more even now..it is now a level 7/8-ish.

It would be a perf base for my toffee color lmao.

For some odd reason some of my tips got this greenish tint now but I have planned cutting it anyway, the last haircut was very sloppy from me.

I have chosen this color for my blonde.

I figured that I could put on a lighter color to lift my hair a level lighter as well if it didn't lift well enough.

But mostly because of the "11" after the level.

A 1 is usually an indication for ash, and my hair needs a lot of ash.

This is the picture on the back.

I hoped that it would turn out like the color on the right side.

I currently have it on my head and boy I AM SCARED.

There is nothing ashy about it yet.

"cool blonde" my ass.

I highly doubt it will turn out the way I want it T.T

I prepared some of my nail stuff now but I guess I should look for another hairdye as well in the meantime.

Why is it so hard for companies to make proper blonde dyes?

Beside my toffee blonde I have never had a blonde dye that I liked, that's a sad quota.

Aaaaand, I'm yellow.

It did lift my hair tho HAHA.

I mean, Okay, I could have expected this because it is a level 11 color, but hey..

It shows dark blonde at the back of the box.

To me dark blonde = level 7/8ish.

I didn't expect it to turn it white, I hoped it would just neutralize the color.

At least the haircutting worked out.

If my roots weren't like super white I think I wouldn't hate it that much.

It is definitely a pretty color.

It's just that I am a very cool type rn and I prefer cool colors.

It made me look a bit barbie T.T

My hair really be sitting just there like "damage, what damage?" T.T

I think it is because I have taken care of it for a long time.

The tips are a little dry now yes.

HOWEVER, tomorrow are the shops open and I have an idea how to fix it.

I should definitely not dye it again but I feel like dying the white roots a bit to create like a shadow root thing and hopefully I will find a toner that fits.

I kinda started feeling it but it is very unusual tbh.

I think it might also be because I am just very pale.

I wanted to take Seis advice and just get a toner.

Usually toners never work for me.

I saw a review from a girl that mixed both of these and her color looked so nice!!

I think the pearly color is too reddish and the platinum too blueish, so I figured mixing both would work just fine for me.

However it did almost nothing to me.

I think I should have went for another round of bleach because my roots have a nice color but the rest of the hair is very much still yellowish.

It matte it a bit but that's it.

I now decided to just leave it and get used to it a bit and next time I will put some more bleach to it.

I am very surprised my hair is still intact lmao.

I haven't taken any more pics of me yet.

But I figured this one with the filter will show some of the color difference to before.

I will keep it this way now but I will do smth else in a couple of weeks, however I am slowly getting used to it. I might just need a new way of styling it.

I went back to work on my nails.

I prepped my own nails and prepared some the night before and finished today.

I am in LOVE <333

I don't like the magnets from the puffball, so I decided to just put it on like that.

If it gets wet, it gets wet I guess.

Washing my hands with these isn't even that bad.

I mean yea, it takes a while until it dries but its not like I will die from it.

The next day at work everyone was surprised to see me blonde...lmao.

I received some compliments but most were just shocked I guess.

But they will get used to it, like they got used to my nails.

Most didn't really realize until one of my coworker kept touching my puffball everyones got their eyes on them "huh, what is thiss?" haha.

One of my colleague said that the puffballs are like hats for my fingers:

"It's cold, she needs to keep them warm" HAHA loved that.

We had longer open times, until 8pm and afterwards I went to an friend from my old job that I haven't seen for a while. 

Can you imagine I have been writing this post the past 4-5 days? lmao.

If I keep saying yesterday, I mean like 3 days ago.

I used my day off today to sleep well, I was super tired and exhausted from all this dying, and doing and thinking haha.

I am still asking wether I should do a lighter or a darker color on my head tho.

Blonde yes, but go more platinum or keep it at a level 7/8?

I also received a lil smth in my mail.

I got it as an ad while scrolling on instagram, I don't use it anymore and I was on for just like 2 seconds and fell as a victim for it.

It is soo damn cute!!!

capitalism on girly mode x33

Now I only need to invite people to play with me haha.