So yesterday I kept watching some more YT videos on nail art and came across this set by Porsche
which was the perfect addition to the inspo I already had + brown color instead of royal blue.
I wanted to use foils but don't really have matching designs so I think the marble design is actually a good idea for an autumn background.
I also loved seeing how she uses the blooming gel. I agree, it speeds up the process and that could help me with the problem I had last time where the gel just ran into cuticle the whole time.
I also like the plaid, I wanted to use plaid this year but didn't have the chance.
French sounds nice but wasn't sure.
and of course the main inspo from last time:
love the cat magnetic gel and the middle finger with the foil+3d flower+chrome frame.
And here is my result:
It turned out a little bit different than I imagined.
thumb and pinky is inspired by the pink design because I wanted to use the magnetic gel there but I don't have many shades and although I used a darker gold glitter gel underneath, it turned out more light gold metallic now than intended.
The plaid was so easy to do but I chose wrong colors, I should have added white somewhere for contrast. The nail was too plain for me, so I had to add SOMETHING and decided to add this little heart which is perfect for this spot.
The marble design was so damn quick this time, porsches technique is a lot better...however I also didn't like the colors much. I accidentally did the same colors like last time without noticing lol.
For the 3d flower nail I needed a background+chrome frame. I opted for matte glitter like I mentioned in my last post but now the golden chrome blends in too much. I still think it is nice but if I had a good foil with maybe a different color it would have stand out more.
I didn't do 3d flowers for ages! I was scared if I forgot how to do it but it was so easy, like I never stopped. I love sculpting flowers with acrylic so much!
I also wanted to paint the petals like in the pink set but then it would ultimately blend background+chrome+petals...so I left it like that.
The marble design also felt too empty to me at some point so I added rhinestones.
I am 100% sure the ones at the tip will fall off but I did it regardless to see how long they would stay lmao.
the only nail where I used a bigger stone.
I actually stabbed myself in this finger when trying to take off the old cluster.
The blood ran so quickly, I never had that.
I almost fainted...had to drink a glass of water, put a bandaid on it and put myself on the bed for a few minutes until I gained color back.
I hope it won't get infected.
Actually when I started the right hand and thought I was done with the design I decided to add another flower on the marble design..NOW I WAS SATISFIED haha.
I was on it 8 hours.
Ok maybe 7 if you leave out the little walk with my dog inbetween and dinner.
It's so crazy, when I do "simple" designs they always take me longer than the ones where I have a bunch of everything on it. Why is that? xD
I am happy with the result regardless.
A few things of course I would do differently next time but it is a really nice design.
I ordered a new "small" haul from shein last night...mostly nail stuff.
For example I got myself now 3XL coffin full cover tips.
I want to have a change from the stilettos.
And a few of new gel shades too.
They were so cheap!! 5-8 bottles for 2€ in total or smth.
Got only one dress for now because this time I tried to stay within the budget.
Also, because I am not sure what to get rn.
I have like, a vibe going on in my head but there is nothing that truly matches it.
I believe there is only one solution, one I had thought of many times before:
I should really start making my own clothes.
I gathered some inspo, also thinking about how I could make it (with as less work as possible as well).
I am going to show you next time.
Need to dry my hair now and then it is already time to go to bed :/
I wanted to do my nails, some laundry etc.etc. but I am so exhausted from the past days.
I was like - nope.
So instead I gave my head some rest today.
I watched this video earlier and wanted to share it:
I actually did smth similiar one time ngl.
I used ai to create possible crocheting designs because I had two colors I wanted to use but didn't have an idea what to do with it.
It certainly gave me interesting ideas (do-able as well) but I ended up just hating the color-combo lol.
The last dress she has shown is absolutely amazing.
Honestly, I think this is a great design if you like certain lolita-elements but don't want it to be - lolita.
y'know?
However the price....lolita is cheaper lmaoooo.
I feel like doing some own designs with ai now.
let me show you something else for today:
I was looking at the nail stuff I have and honestly there is not much with royal blue to make a design suitable for my current taste.
I decided to go for browns instead first and saw this video and I love the design.
After the nail set I will create tomorrow (lazy today), I planned a snowflake winter design anyway.
I could definitely use the royal blue for a similiar look.
This design also solves the silver/gold-dilemma I have.
I personally prefer gold and a lot of my gems are gold, so making silver designs is not really an option to me. In this way, there is a healthy gold/silver balance.
Obviously I make the design a bit different. More glitter, darker shade of blue, maybe some cluster?
But again, brown first.
I looked through some of my "testnails" or old designs that popped off my finger completely.
Which happened when I started but obviously doesn't happen anymore.
I saw there this glittery brown design with a 3d flower and I think I can make something with this idea (will show you what I mean).
What I thought was SUPER FUNNY: like I already mentioned I also had some of my popped off designs there and I remember that some of them were the super long nails.
They look so tiny to me now T.T
I put them next to my current nails - they are half the length.
It's so crazy how your perception of things changes over time like with this.
Since I am currently not posting much, here a lil yappy post haha.
I am planning to make a new nail design this sunday (or monday idk).
but since I was trying out using glue for rhinestones I thought I should show how good it worked.
so here is the design again after approx.~3 weeks I think it was?
Most stones are still on...those which fell of first were applied on "stress" points.
Here for example, I always wipe on this part of the surface of the nail (bad habit)..but they did not fall off after like ...2 weeks? Also important to see is, that the bottom of the stone is still on.
-> this tells me that the application itself was sturdy but the rhinestone probably had a bad quality, so the bottom did not stick to the whole stone.
You also see the red stone of the cluster that I got from shein peeled off.
That did not happen to any of the other stones, just this exact color.
In general these cluster stones are so bad, I will definitely not order them again.
the first to fall off were here on the sides -> they are exactly on the edge: stress point!
Here you can see on this nail why you cannot use solid gel for rhinestones (on top the two stones that fell off).
The bottom is too flat, it cannot attach properly on the solid.
but I also want to say that this was the first time my "checkered" lines looked soo good!
I am getting the hang of it, I guess.
the last to fall off are the red stones.
I had to apply multiple within a short time frame.
Maybe it is really the quality of the stones, the bottoms also still stick here.
I could also believe that maybe it isn't attached properly because the glue was already too dry and I was too slow?
Everything possible haha.
BUT! They just started to fall off the past few days.
Since I already know I will put on a new design, I was more reckless with my nails and didn't "protect" the style much anymore I have to admit.
I just watched another video of bomb nails on YT.
the last time she painted colored gel on a 3d flower it looked so ugly, I was like "nooo!".
But here it looks super pretty with the cat gel, so maybe glitter/cat gel is a cool idea for a 3d flower.
I also feel like doing one again after...months of not sculpting haha.
These nails actually look so nice!
Especially the middle finger with the foil..
I haven't done foil in a while.
I currently plan on using royal blue for the new design but I haven't checked my inventory yet.
I need to see what I have to know what I could do.
This was probably the shortest on hiatus ever in history lmao..
but I feel better and that's a good thing...there was just too many things at once that dragged me down and I felt like just...needing my time.
Here a lil update now hehe.
Halloween with my cousin in bavaria
I arrived in the evening and we decided to watch a movie and order some food.
We watched "until dawn" and then they said they have a game on the playstation.
I never play..since my brother just took our playstation into his room when we were kids I couldn't play anymore. I had my wii but eventually he took that one as well?
I have never really been a gamer but when I tell you I was addicted lmao.
Probably because it is not exactly "game"...it is a storyline and you decide what to do next.
There were totem that would "help" you decide but sometimes I feel like they made me choose the wrong things HAHA.
Next morning I asked if we could head to a shop to get a new cable for me.
My new phone doesn't have an AUX and I need one for my car, so I can listen to music.
My parents offered me to sell their electric car to me when I told them xD
(new phone, new car yknow HAHA) but I turned down the offer, an electric car, especially for that price would be a downgrade financially for me. It wouldn't make sense but I appreciated they considered me.
I am better off with my fiesta I still have rn.
some selfies in the car!
Her boyfriend believed this was my halloween makeup..He did not understand that this is how I usually look.
We didn't find a cable but this adapter and it would work just as well I think.
A picture with my cousin <3 (yes she is naturally blonde)
She didn't really have a costume and couldn't choose between a red satin dress or this one, she wanted to wear the horns tho because we said we would dress up a bit.
I made her wear the black dress because it gave me more vampy vibes, the other was too elegant.
I picked a red lipstick and wore one of my gothic dresses with my black knee boots I got from shein.
I wanted to take some pictures outside but the lighting was so bad, none of the pictures turned out good...sorry.
Where did we go? We went to an autistic dinner lol.
Her boyfriend is autist and he invited me to go to their autistic meet up which is every last friday in the month and since there was halloween, I was like "hey cousin, sounds like a perfect match of the day huh?". We used to drink together on halloween with my friend josi but when we grew up, we distanced ourselves because my cousin moved away.
Her boyfriend thinks I have autistic traits and I am gonna be 100% honest with you, I thought the same for many years now but I didn't feel like diagnosing myself.
I learned how to deal with my traits and how I set my limits/borders, so diagnosing now would not have any benefits for me. It was nice to hear tho that an autist themself thought the same.
Then I know I am not crazy for thinking about it or that I overdramatise anything.
The dinner was super funny..when I tell you...I felt like in a big bang theory episode!
It was just exactly like that. Most autistic women canceled, so it was mostly men...and they were all in IT and stuff lmao. I couldn't really talk there since I am not an IT person at all..
There was one guy who was into history and when I talked about fashion, we kinda found a meeting point to talk about there when we combined fashion+history haha.
I stayed longer than I thought (mainly bcuz I was so lazy and didn't wanna drive back).
I finished the until dawn game. I had only 2 survivors lmao.
And then we decided to play a similiar game but multiplayer (smth with ashes was the title).
Because of me we also had only two survivors again.
Sry I am killing all the people lmao.
I drove back the sunday, 4 days later after lunch. They had to go to work next day and I felt a lil bad for leaving so late..I know how exhausting it can be having visit over.
I was glad I could go tho and my cousin said the same.
The phone dilemma
And guess what...I had to send my phone back..YAY.
I told you about the contract mistake ya?
We accidentally set a new contract with the phone and couldn't cancel the old one until november 26.
So we called there, hoping we could find an agreement but we couldn't.
I thought about it and I loved the phone sm, I didn't want to send it back so we decided to keep both.
While I was gone, they canceled the contract tho...Why?
Me and my dad decided to call the next day.
I woke up at night because the moon was shining straight into my face and I thought..let's test the camera a bit more lol.
there were clouds coming up all the time but I think these pictures already look kinda nice <3
We called them and they said, that apparently we said on the phone we didn't want it???
So first of all.
1. I did not say that. I said "ok, we have to think about how we decide".
2. Even if, they can't just cancel bcuz of a phone call? Don't they need it written??
And again, there was no turning back...all the options they gave us would consist of me having to send the phone back first.
So I deleted everything, packed it all back into the box (including the trash because I was petty now), and sent it back.
I decided I will get the phone anyway, because I LOVE it.
But I will take my time now and look for the best deal I can find online.
I definitely won't get anything from them, I am super angry at them now.
It was already unflexible from them they couldn't just cancel the old contract or make a deal with us but I see it was our mistake, so I left it.
But just canceling my new one without asking? just like that?
Nah, no going back.
My old phone contract is until nov 26 and then I will leave them completely and look for smth else.
They fucked up bad here for me.
The wig dilemma
I already told you it was much at the same time?
Here same dilemma.
I received the blonde wig a couple days ago and see there..
it was NOT like I ordered...but I kinda knew that would happen.
130€ for all that stuff? smells like scam.
Here is the wig:
the hair and the wig itself is actually really nice..you can def work with it..
it's just the data...that is incorrect.
the density is not 220% as you can see..that's like 150% if at all.
the length is NOT 24 inch.
the length need to be measured a lil different on wigs than on bundles.
You need to measure on top of the wig.
So a 24inch is shorter on a wig than if you would get bundles and sew a wig yourself.
Just so you know ;)
but regardless, it was like 50-55cm.
24 inch is 60cm.
And it gets reaaally thin at the bottom because of the missing density.
So I think it is 45-50cm max. of actual length (20-22inch).
the lace front is NOT 13x6...that's approx. 11cm which is a 13x4inch lacefront.
a 6 inch should measure around 15cm.
I checked their offer and if I had decided to buy a 13x4inch, 20-22inch and 150% wig, I would have saved around 60€.
One thing I didn't know?
AliEx changed their refund system.
Normally, you can directly ask for a partial refund...send your pictures and the seller can agree or disagree.
Not possible anymore...you can just cancel completely and send back.
So I decided to just contact the seller directly...trying to get a refund.
I send the same pictures...here is the whole beef if you are interested:
I was like: THE AUDACITY xDD
"sry it did not meet your expectations".
Expectations? you mean, receiving what I asked for?
and then just 10€ refund? nah I was mad.
I expected that the wig won't be like I ordered.
Never for 130€ you get all that but the audacity is what made me go wild here, fighting for a refund like a bitch lmao.
The review pictures are definitely fake!!
And then I went to their reviews on their page and looked for the 1 star reviews.
The girls said the same.
One girl said they offered her a refund if she cancels the dispute and then didn't refund her.
After you cancel your dispute on AliEx, you cannot open a dispute again.
(IMPORTANT FOR YOU TO REMEMBER ;) )
They were panicking about the open dispute, like most do when you put the AliEx team into the case and they kept offering me a refund if I close the dispute.
I have to agree I did not see the picture the first time.
And this was like day 4 or 5 of the dispute? idk.
I thought about it and honestly, since I did not expect the hair to meet the criteria anyway, I got tired of fighting here and just risked it.
Next time I know they changed their refund and dispute system.
I was SURPRISED they actually refund me.
Yes it is not the 60€ I asked for but better than nothing.
I have a blonde lacefront wig for 90€ now...which is still kinda a deal tho.
Too bad my taste changed in the meantime but if I feel like wearing blonde...I have one now.
Keep reading to see why.
I also received the tape and the blonde thread.
The tape is just like last time and although it is shorter I imagined...it is enough to cover the lacefront <3
Dying my own hair
I absolutely hated my grown roots and thought it was time to dye my hair.
Since I will not go blonde again (I am defeated) and try to wear wigs instead, I might as well just go dark again.
If my hair is dark, I don't need to dye it that often anymore since the roots won't peak out like crazy anymore.
just like last time I know I need to put some red in but instead of trying red colors I wanted to instantly go dark...I opted for these two colors tho that have red pigments.
I left my hair a little before dying day, thats why they are so damn greasy.
I also didnt feel like cleaning my mirror because I knew it will end up dirty again.
I wanted to cut off my hair as well because of the snapped ones underneath.
It is so disturbing that I had these short ones peaking out all the time and it made me feel awful.
I figured if I cut it just a teeny tiny bit below it won't be too short but still long enough to cover the snapped hair and it wont't look like some broken parts are peaking out.
I cut the hair before I dyed it because it made no sense to me dying hair I will cut off.
Also because after I am done showering I just want to relax and not additionally stand in the bathroom and cut my hair again.
The dye is a whole lot darker than I imagined wow...it is almost black.
BUT with the new haircut it actually looks absolutely gorgeous what the hell.
I had to ask my mum to cut the back a lil and fix it there because that part I could just not get it done right.
In the back it is still a bit too long, it would look better for this length if it was shorter in the back but longterm I want to let it grow out and then having the back shorter will make everything more...exhausting.
I didn't wear makeup today but I wanted to show you the hair..
hooray on meitu makeup editing lmaoo.
It's almost the same color my wig used to have.
My mum absolutely loves it.
Me too...I am actually growing into it.
At first I was like "ah, its so short" but it looks SO DAMN GOOD.
neo-reiwa-gyaru or..nah?
The thought of having dark hair made my mind switch vibes the past week.
I suddenly felt more fond of a different look I used to absolutely love when I was in isolation.
So I am probably trying something else while I am at it.
I made some collages to show you what my vibe was and is again:
pearls, lace, roses, greek mythology, a hint of retro, elegance, mystical, dark femininity, black hair, cheetah/leopard.
When I looked at it it seems like a more accurate version of how I am today.
I probably won't be perceived gyaru with a look like that lmao but also I don't care.
Which is so weird, because nothing changes...just slightly bit different makeup and dark hair?
Am I turning Jibun gyaru?
Maybe haha, maybe it is just a gyaru look break.
While I was mentally down I felt like I needed an AI therapy session to calm down
(does anyone do the same, or are you normal?).
Well at some point I was talking about how I felt frustrated with my hair and I feel like I do not look gal at all without blonde hair and ai told me that probably I should remake gyaru in my own terms.
I already do more or less but still it felt wrong xD
like when you take things way out of context? I felt like I would change the look too much.
Something I haven't exactly pointed out in my last posts in detail yet, is also the feeling that gyaru might not be suitable for me anymore?
It is already difficult to be an onee-gal within the teens and the reiwa scene is more distanced to the original way gyaru used to live (nude fatigue for example).
It made me wonder: maybe I should really quit?
Not that I don't like it anymore but to some degree it feels like I am currently trying to hold on to my old self with force.
Like I would as a young adult (19-20), watching old children movies and shows I used to love because I didn't feel like I want times to change and instead of genuinely enjoying watching them again, I couldn't relate to it anymore. I cried that day because I knew I was not my young self anymore.
Kinda same feeling here. I love gyaru and to some degree I define myself as one but when I actually look up gyaru content, comm, mags etc. I do not truly relate to it. I only relate to it in theory. I feel like I also need to accept that I have grown and I do not relate to many things anymore.
like I have autistic traits, I tend to have gyaru traits, but not exactly gyaru in full.
I finally need to have the strength and make a cut I guess.
I still will do gal from time to time and love the mags and like to get inspo from it..
but I feel like heading towards a unique look even more..
something I feel not only comfortable with but I also deeply am able define myself as.
And if it doesn't look gyaru in the end? So it is then.
And if I feel like wearing my blonde wig sometime and wing a reiwa look, then I will have fun doing so.
todays look
I didn't feel well in the morning so I called in sick for work but later it was completely gone?
I planned going grocery shopping after work anyway so I decided to just head for the shop then and also promised my dad to pick up something from the pharmacy for him.
First time I wore this dress with the knee high boots and it looks pretty good tbh!!
The pharmacy wouldnt open until an hour later so I was like fineee, I go shopping lmao.
I don't have any money yo..
I found a bra in my size on sale (which fits) and this shirt in the mens section.
I planned getting some normal shirts in the future so I can actually have proper loungewear which is not my pajamas. Girls if you want comfy shirts that are cheap as well, look in the mens section.
Don't be shy here.
I found this particular one for only 4€...good enough to take it.
I also quickly went to dms since I know some day I need to get shower gel and contact solution and then I already have it, I need to waste time anyway.
I picked these two christmas/winter ones from treaclemoon.
Both have kinda a berry scent and they are soo good.
They also had a chai latte one which would smell even more winter/christmas-like but I felt like the scent was a bit too strong for my liking so I left it.
some music
I posted a few weeks ago that lafee will publish her new album and I have shown you some of the old songs I liked.
From all the songs from this album I liked she has published 2 weeks ago, next to the other that were already published as a sneakpeak, I liked "Heiligenschein" most.
I actually set it as my background song now for my blog but you can also watch it here on youtube
A little translation from my side.
"swallow gasoline,
I got fire in my bloodstream.
I am not a girl that has always been good.
If I want, I can drive all night to hell.
please more champagne,
devil, refill my glas!
I don't want to be an angel,
even if heaven is crying.
I don't want to be an angel.
No, I don't wear a halo.
thunderbolts strike above my block.
just the moon is shining above my head.
I don't want to be an angel.
no, I don't wear a halo."
Another song that I currently have on repeat is "Stolz auf was?"
The singer has an amazing voice and I like the text.
here is my translation of the refrain:
"Proud, of what?
Tell me.
Proud, of what?
of the emptiness in the chest.
of the glamour that quickly fades.
Proud, of what?
I ask you all.
Proud, of what?
your words are so loud!
but they tell me:
of what? of the lies you sell to yourselves!"
new layout
matching to my new vibe, I also felt like changing my design a bit.
I didn't want to completely overthrow the layout cuz I really liked the arrangement.
So I asked myself how can I make this design more tame without completely loosing the quirky side of me?
When I tell youuu...
I was searching for hooours for sparkly gifs that are NOT PINK.
there were emo and gothic stuff and A TON OF PINK, but also blue, fairy etc.
but of course not really anything my vibe...mainly because If anything at all, it is a new aesthetique which did not exist in the peak blogger/myspace-era.
The compromise?
Some gifs I found that match the vibe kinda, retro memes on the left (absolutely my kind of humour), some orthodox/gothic/punk-mix lmao, aphrodite of course was necessary and quotes instead of the blingies in my footer.
I tried lmao.
Everything else was too cute, too flashy, tooo...you get it.
