new hope

 

Today was very calm at work.

dress...DreamV

necklace...Jesus Diamante

cardigan...stolen from my mum

shoes...AliEx

yesterday I finished the 2nd book from the "before the coffee gets cold"-series and I almost cried again.

I swear to god, these books are so beautiful...now I want to finish them and realized I don't have the 3rd!!

I got 4 books and I thought it was only 4 in the series but now I realized that they published the 5th (!) book in november last year and I accidentally got this one instead of the 3rd.

Even though the stories are not exactly connected and I could continue with the 4th, they are mentioning now and then stories from the other books so I don't really feel like it :(

(yes, I am that much of a pain)

So I have to get the 3rd one sometime and then finish...but it's not like I don't have plenty other books to read hehe :))))

My father almost finished my kitchen today!!

There are only a few small things to do and fix but I can put more or less my stuff in again.

I will show soon enough to you but I want to take pictures when it's done DONE.

But I guess I will start putting my stuff in the cabinets so I have more space in my living room and actually can use it as a living room again instead of a warehouse :)

He also has to fix some of my wallpaper so he asked what I wanted to do with the rest of my living room.

I originally wanted very bold wallpaper and started in a corner and haven't finished yet but now I feel like doing something else.

I for example have an electric fireplace and wanted to hang my tv over it on the wall with a bigger bookshelf on the other corner of the wall (I also like bold colors a lot when it comes to interior design).

But now the more I think of it, I never use my TV...like almost never.

I am not even sure if I want to keep it? Like, where am I supposed to put it?

I am serious, why keep a TV if you don't use it at all?

I rather have a bigger bookshelf and get more books :))

But my dad dislike the idea, he views it a waste of space because I won't read the books more than once..

He doesn't get the book vibe but I did not feel like explaining it to him.

It is like a wine collection to me haha.

Also I just love the feeling of putting it in my shelf as some kind of achievement.

But only readers will get the vibe :(

I need to get some inspo on how I want to furnish my living room.

I am also getting more excited again and have more energy.

Is my resting phase coming to an end?

maybe it's the weather but I feel more motivated and started planning some things again.

I was able to go to work without a jacket today!

Going without a jacket is like a milestone to me in the year that tells me: "Now winter is over!"..haha.

Tomorrow is sunday, which means no work.

next week will be brutal (at least for my terms).

I have wednesday off but then I have to work even saturday and sunday (open day), and my work week continues the other week as well. That means within 12 days, I have only 2 days off. I need to work 6 days at once next week because of the sunday.

It's insane to think that when I used to work at the hotel it was completely normal to have like 7-9 day shifts after each other and sometimes even with 10+ hour shifts and you don't even notice but now that I am SO USED to working part-time I already am exhausted when they put me a 5th day in the week, which is completely normal.

I am not lazy, I just got verrry comfortable...those are the times you need to be grateful for what you have!!

I will get some inspo online and then maybe if there is some time start another book.

Yes, I know I said I will finish some I started but they are not my vibe right now.

(mood-reader excuse sry not sry).

calm before the storm?

 

my calm phase continues...

I don't have much to tell..

Writing is hard, trading is hard...I am going heavy on short right now in this crisis..

use the crash for profit y'know...

I read more now..

(me casually covering my name tag)

I was an outfit repeater that day.

I had my day off and relaxed a lot.

In the evening I used my purple shampoo again and just damn...that shampoo is so damn strong..I had it on for seconds!!

If you want silver hair...get the purple shampoo from L'ador...damn.

dress...Takko

cardigan/shoes/necklace...AliEx

necklace...Jesus Diamante

cardigan...Axes femme

shirt/skirt/shoes...AliEx

hairclip...C&A

I was very happy with my makeup that day.

I wanted to try something different that day..

It was also quick to do.

Today I also have a day off.

Going to spend it reading more, enjoying the sun, informing myself on current situations...

A couple days ago I made two orders.

I am not sure how much I have told on my blog yet?

I put up one order on devilinspired with retro/vintage-dresses that I have been eyeing quite some while now. I actually wanted to put more focus on preorders but currently there were very extravagant dresses and I just know I won't wear them too often -> so a waste of money rn.

When I put up the order I found out about another lolita shop called 42lolita, which looked very interesting as well!

They offered a set-up that I wanted to preorder at devilinspired a while ago but hesitated, afterwards regret a long time I did not buy!

So I ordered it as well now, just to make sure that it doesn't get sold out there as well.

I took me a while to find it somewhere again.

This will financially put me back some now but I doubt I will need much money this month, so I will be fine I guess.

I am thinking of wearing some of my lolita dresses to work..some are not too extravagant, so I think depending on how you code it, it won't be much more "striking" than what I am currently wearing.

I am so excited..in about 4 weeks I will be flying to singapore..

I am getting really nervous now.

xhs girly (gyaru light?)

 Edit: I had this in my drafts for some time now. I wanted to edit it for longer but currently I am not really active on xhs. Since I am facing a writers blockage today I decided to finish this post instead.

Today I will be babbling a bit about xiaohongshu, or as many call it "RedNote".

While I answered ki-rin on my I quit post I noticed how damn hard it is to explain what is going on in my head. I figured it will be easier to show.

But now as always, when you want to show somebody examples of something they won't show up and you have to dig really deep for the content you were intending to show haha.

So I will gather these over a longer period I think.

Also it will be heavy with screenshots...a lot of users on xhs don't allow downloads.

 First things first

I personally see a lot of parallels between xhs girls from china and the kawaii gyaru look that was popular around ca. 2010-2012.

Even though I have dressed modestly the past 2 years, I also liked the shorter looks and can see myself wearing them in the future.

I had most of my inspo from the platform and even after wanting to wear gyaru-style more often I can see myself wearing a xhs kind of gyaru style.

Like mixing them together...

Funnily, I think the girly makeup styles from xhs look more gyaru than the gyaru makeup looks from xhs girls. Very paradox haha.

 Lifestyle

The content on xhs is very broad..I like to view lolita and recipe content as well on it.

But there are sometimes posts for example where they show their apartments or inside of cars etc. that have a vibe that reminds me of what gyaru lifestyle looked like.

It's the playful and cozyness that I love and the content can be sanrio-heavy as well.

There are a lot of girlys out there and I think that's why I found my place there

Look at this super cute bathroom!

The slippers and the pajamas look so cozy <3

Tempted to get sanrio-related dishes and only cook cute in my kitchen.

I thought about getting a pink kitchen for a bit but decided to make a black one now..I absolutely love black kitchen but this one is also very cute.

 Makeup

I can't believe how hard it was to find matching pictures.

Like I said, as soon as you need the content you don't find it.

When looking for makeup content I was mostly shown creative makes that did not properly show my point.

The makeup techniques are similiar to how gyaru makeup was done.

The jump between xhs and gyaru is not much after all.

What certainly is different are the lashes that are more natural and the drawn on bottom lash look they prefer (that I absolutely hate on myself lmao).

I've been following her for quite some time now for example.

I think her eyemakeup has that kawaii girly vibe to it that was featured in Popteen and Ageha etc.

less lash intensive but I love how in xhs makeup different color combinations are tried out.

This is what bothered me about gyaru makeup for a while.

At some point they stopped experimenting too much.

Especially in ageha (also because I own mostly ageha) the makeups look all the same at some point, and they only used brownish/nude shades.

Another girl that reminds me of that girly gyaru vibe.

However she uses a lot less makeup.

Kiki is like THE girl on xhs that made me instantly go "oh, that looks like gyaru".

Her makeup is a lot heavier than what mosts girls wear on the platform.

Here another example with the colors..

Her makeups are so damn cute.

She manages to have that cool dolly look without having to do much to it.

Also her style is leaning more towards a rock vibe.

I had to be very strong when seeing this picture.

It makes me want to go copper so hard!

She is like a mix of late gyaru and early larme in my eyes.

I love her cute hairstyle.

I should not cut bangs again tho...pls help me.

(Edit: I have cut bangs at this point)

 Nails

The nails are a lot lighter but can be long as well.

What I noticed is the shape is a lot more rounder on xhs.

However I get my "gem"-inspo from there haha.

I was in loooove when I have seen this design around christmas time.

I would have loved to do something similiar but I think it was done partially with airbrush to get effects like this and I don't own airbrush, or could do this with one hand I guess.

Another suuuper cute nail design.

The nails on xhs are again a lot lighter, rounder and they like using glitter or cateye polishes.

Rarely but sometimes they are matte and candy-like like the ones on the picture.

Another cute design.

 Fashion

Here I had troubles showing what exactly I mean.

There are a lot of lolita and fairycore content on it but they also have outfits that can be applied to gyaru-terms.

Here is just a collection of things that inspired me:

This outfit is super duper cute!!!!!

I am in LOVE <3

long skirt here but this is similiar to the stuff I mainly wore the last years.

I also like how they add sanrio charms to their bags that gives it this playful vibe.

Like here as well.

xhs has a lot of it's preppy content too and I thought this was very pretty and elegant.

And here as well a lil hello kitty charm on the bag haha.

I could literally tag her whole account.

I love every single outfit.

I can definitely see a Tsubasa or a Ranzuki/Popteen-model in this.

I think this has these playful vibes as well.

Give her blonde curly hair with gyaru makeup and it could make its performance in Ranzuki!

Not specifically with a gyaru vibe but this is like 99% my style in summer.

I can't put into words how much I like these kind of dresses.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE them SOOO MUCH.

Another one from Asano...these girly looks are my absolute favourite kind for spring/summer weather.

I love this outfit so much <3

I hope I could make myself a bit clearer and maybe you liked some what I have shown you as well.

Yes, a lot can be considered casual lolita or something but like I often already mentioned during the peak kawaii gyaru years (at least when I got into it) it has always been more fluid...it was the kawaii-j-fashion-scene and if you are into it but feel like the vibe from the old days are gone, you might find a similiar new vibe there.

I am currently back on xhs more often and I love this place sm.

I have my own little bubble there <3

writers blockage

 I wanted to use the past two days of plenty of free time to read and write and here I am...sitting in a heavy writer blockage. :(

Maybe I need pressure to be productive lmao.

I have quite some ideas to work on and to NONE of them my head wants to make up words.

Damn it.