new project - the atelier

 

The no-liner makeup did not work out haha...it was sooo damn natural...I could not..

I added a tiny lil liner wing at the end but with brown eyeliner.

I chose super natural lashes that I still had but forgot how natural they really were.

They basically just gave my own a bit more volume but nothing else changed HAHA.

It was...soooo weird being all natural like that.

It's seriously a no-makeup makeup look.

I used another catrice palette...like the pigmentation is so incredibly bad...I did not remember that the makeup was so bad?

Or maybe I am just spoiled by my other amazing palettes haha.

I accidentally hit the record button so enjoy my face in motion lmao

For tomorrow I still want to practice this "natural" kind of makeup but with a little bit more...*extra*..

hmm, idk let's see..

I am going to choose other type of lashes, which are pretty thin but in a kinda "dolly" style..

maybe that will do the trick for me?

Today I had to work in the boutique, which means a lot of unpacking, sorting, walking, moving etc...so I had to pick an outfit that's comfortable, not too warm, not too cold and with flat shoes.

Preferably no "sensitive" material that could be destroyed.

That means about 98% of my wardrobe was not eligible...so here is the result what I chose now.

top...local

cardigan/skirt...AliEx

shoes...Deichmann

hairband...local

necklace...AliEx

It was perfect for the day actually haha untiiiiil when it was evening and time to go home.

The whole day was sunny and after work was done it started raining heavily!

I definitely had the wrong shoes for that but I think they dried already.

Also I want to announce something:

Usually my body follows like a cycle and I have three phases, they don't necessarily have to take turns in a circle and can go back and forth.

Inspiration, Creation and Resting.

During my "Resting"-phase I pretty much go numb.

I have no energy or motivation to do anything. No thoughts or interests.

I can be happy and healthy and all of that and wide awake but it's like my inner "machine" goes on sleep-mode.

During my "Inspiration"- phase I want to see things, collect and gather as much as I can.

I pretty much go mentally on a trip. I could also jump between apps to get inspiration from different sources. My mind is hungry.

And the last phase, that I currently am in is the "Creation"-phase.

It's when I want to do things. When I have a bunch of ideas and feel like working, working, working.

Maybe kind of unrelated to creation itself but when I am in this phase I also tend to be more productive in terms of housework or duties.

Sometimes the "Inspiration"- and "Creation"- phase go hand in hand and switch like almost hourly.

Being in the "Creation"-phase also means I was working on my new project I am planning for a while now.

A lot of you who follow my posts have seen me posting some of my writing every now and then.

Although, most of what I have done so far I have not published.

I do not confine it to solely written works in the near future.

I have decided for my next project to make a new blog called - "the atelier".

Where I will publish new writings more frequently, and more...but I don't want to spoil too much.

Let's just see where this idea develops.

Beside a little description I have not posted anything there yet but I would appreciate if you click on follow to be the first to get new posts!

-> go to the atelier

Thank you to everyone who keeps reading my posts and follows me <3

I am currently so excited because I feel like I am ready to take myself "to the next step".

Like for example especially when you are younger you have no idea what to do and what you wanna be and I always knew what I liked but I did not know what to do with it, if that makes sense?

For example I liked fashion but what am I supposed to do with it beside shopping? I could not imagine being a fashion designer, or a model, or a fashion journalist..

And a lot of my experiences in the past are just completely random and nothing really connects and I always feel like being thrown back again and again and again..

Like my whole purpose, what the hell I am doing etc.

There was so much crap that I repeatedly had to work through with myself and process.

I finally see where it is all going..

I don't believe in god or in a "plan" of a god but if there is an entity that tried to tell me where I belong, I am finally able to connect and understand the path I have to go.

I understand why the things that happened to me, happened for a good reason.

I understand now why I missed so many chances, why I repeatedly felt like a failure in life who does not progress.

I was never meant for "this".

I accepted my purpose.

I am not sure where this journey will take me but I am letting myself fall and get into it.

Again thank you to all readers!

Wether I "succeed" or not is not my goal...the journey is so much more worth to me tbh.

It's more about expression to me.

I enjoy my next step and I am ready to give all passion into it.