book gets and some yapping

 COUNTDOWN: 4 DAYS LEFT!

yesterday was my last working day and now my vacation has started...

I got a gift for my host family now from work...we have a variety of black forest themed gifts, so I figured these would be best. I took a magnet now and a gift set with a spoon that has a lasered Bollenhut in it with schinus berry spice.

The magnet has a lil pun on it:

,,die Kuh" means "the cow", but it sounds like "cool".

The magnet says "the "kuhl" black forest".

(how a Bollenhut looks like..also I love these women...these pics are all over the black forest)

I think this will be a great gift to take to singapore.

Today I figured I "lost" my package with the books I just ordered.

I knew it will only be 3 for now, because the 4th will be shipped seperately a bit later.

I received the notification it was loaded for shipping but never the notification that it has arrived?

So I thought I look in my box today and there it is...waiting for me the whole weekend :)

Now I have the third book of the before the coffee gets cold series and can continue! <3

The other two were on my wishlist for a while.

The 4th that is still missing will be shipped around end of may...so it means it will arrive just when I get back home from my trip.

It's "wednesday child" from yiyun li and I have seen it on pinterest, so I was curious now.

My mood shifts away from lolita inspo and back to gyaru now.

I think because most of these "casual lolita" clothings just suit so well for my work and I was in a flower power mood, I just went back to my other styles...also because most of my wardrobe already has these clothes.

I had quite some troubles finding new "gyaru"-inspired outfits every single day from what I already have...I need to do more shopping in this direction if I want to wear gyaru more often.

Most of the gyaru clothes I have are a bit short for work, or are ott hime.

I am not quite sure what I want to pack for singapore now...maybe both 50/50?.

Also because I haven't worn hime for a long time now.

I am really vibing with rokku gyaru lately but I have like 0,01% in my closet :(

I will dye my hair today or tomorrow (I am not sure yet).

I will try my experiment and mix my fav 07 toffee blonde color I already had with the 08 vanilla blonde that I have on my head now.

Here a little comparison:

here I have also used the toffee blonde.

Both are from 2021...

and the vanilla blonde I have now:

both are dyed on pre-lightened hair.

Vanilla is a bit too light for me now, it bores me, it want it darker.

Toffee is a bit dark for my taste, it would pretty much  ruin all the effort to lighten it to this point.

So, I wish for something inbetween?

It's difficult to show a picture where it has the color but I also don't want to have any "expectation" and then be dissappointed if it's not exactly the color.

I want something inbetween, that's it haha.

But here are two colors where I think it could end up, depending wether the darker toffee pigments are more dominant or the vanilla pigments.

I also don't mind having warm hair now...even tho I have my purple shampoo for that, I prefered the color when it was warm than matte on myself...interesting haha.

I also need to do my nails...

I had to get them off because the stability wasn't given anymore, I just have a small nailbed and to keep my nails on for longer than 3 weeks is just too much.

It was constantly bending over my finger.

But it was also too early to make new ones.

It has been the first time after almost 3 years that I had no nails on for longer than a couple hours.

I have realised three things in the meantime

1. I immediately started biting again...my nails are bleeding like crazy and it hurts. I just can't stop.

2.I can't function without them. Even simple things like getting forks and knives out of the drawer has been almost impossible to me.

3.I hate it. xD

Since I am not sure what I want to wear in Singapore, I have decided now to go for a more "natural" look considering the colors, but I want deco again...I yearn for the decooo...T.T
maybe nude or pink, with glitter and a bunch of diamond clusters again haha.
For the length I need to check which ones I have...I have in my mind, that the 2xl stiletto were empty? So I have to check which ones I can use...but I prefer longer now.
Also I want a mix of almond and round shape...I might use a stiletto and get rid of the sharp tip.

 I am not sure wether I will keep my bangs or not.
It's crazy how incredibly damaged they are...they are fried AF!
The difference between my haircare and no heat on my lengths vs. less care and daily heat on my bangs is INSANE.
I mean they are fried, literally...I like bangs but they are also high maintenance in the morning.
I might grow them out for curtain bangs or something...I like how it shapes my face, so I will not go completely without bangs I think but I need to get the right cut for me.

My language school has send me a reminder e-mail now with all the information I was looking for the past days. I kind of feel bad now for nagging so much in my last post. I guess I am really really getting nervous now but it has been the same way when I went to Mallorca.
Even when arriving, I first had a really bad LOW but after a few hours I was relaxed again.
Hope it's going to be the same way.
I am excited to post about my trip <3