Baptism + day off

 

Like I mentioned in my last post on sunday I went to my nieces baptims.

I wanted to wear a golden JD dress but I didn't think I had to try it on beforehand...and yknow what...I don't fit in anymore!!

I might have to sell my JD dresses as well it seems.

I did the blowout+makeup from the last few days except different eyeshadow and I used black eyeliner instead of brown.

matching bow with dress.

necklace + scarf...Jesus Diamante

dress...Mademoiselle Pearl

bag...Love Moschino

shoes...Catwalk/Deichmann

My bag and my shoes were supposed to fit the dress...now I had the think of something else that matches my nails and the rest of the outfit...so I picked that lolita dress now.

I wanted to cover my shoulders but I had no bolero or anything pretty to go with it, so I used this JD scarf as an elegant choice to put over my shoulders..I think it worked pretty well.

Like every week now I have mondays off...you won't believe it but I just sat down NOW.

From the morning I was on my feet.

In the morning I went on a walk with my dog, went grocery shopping, prepared lunch for my dad and then went back to my apartment to bake muffins (espresso-muffins with chocolate filling) and to clean.

I wasn't finished cleaning until like 5pm maybe?

I then wanted to dye my hair but remembered I had to pour water over my flowers on the balcony.

I then saw how dirty my balcony was.

I tidied my flowers, cleaned my balcony floor and then pour water on my flowers before I finally could dye my hair then lmao.

Tadaaa...this is the color I picked...so here is whyy:

I want to go darker but my hair doesn't hold the pigment.

This is technically a level 8 apparently? (the first number is 8)..and then it also shows a 7 at the end, which means copper pigments.

My idea was to fill my hair a little bit with a light brown color before being able to fully wear red pigments but because this color has red I figured it might give me a slight copper shade I want.

I expect it to wash out as well but hope because of the brown pigments it will at least be a couple levels darker.

beforee

this is the mix...as you can tell it looks quite orangey.

and the color turned out perfect!!!!

Normally I didn't want to take a picture when it is not styled yet but I had to show.

The roots are almost the same color like my lengths, which means the dye can lift dark colors very well.

This is impressive!! the roots almost look the same.

The color is soooo damn pretty!!!!!

I love it.

I hope it doesn't wash out as much (although I expect it)...it looks so nice on myself...I think I will keep this shade for longer and just refresh next time or smth...we will see.

Tomorrow I try taking a picture with makeup and blowout to show you.

I already put my curlers in.

It's 10pm...and I finallllyy  SIT. 

It's crazy...my feet hurt so much.

but it's nice to have a clean space haha.

I know I don't blog as much anymore but that's also because I repeat outfits every day, I don't go anywhere but grocery shopping or work and I spend my time relaxing and reading....mostly.

maybe I should write something again...my fingers itch haha but idk what to write hmm..

早上好

 Helloow..

Day off today..

I woke up early and went into town in the morning...

I planned buying sneakers bcuz mine all broke.

Can you believe both of the Ali ones broke so fast??? But I walked a looot with the white ones in Singapore I have to admit.

Unfortunately i did not rly find good ones.

Only one pair but I found it quite expensive...I have to think about it.

But decided for new kitten heels instead.

I decided to wear these white ones at the baptism tomorrow💕💕

I am on a shopping ban for myself...only necessary things are allowed and that meant flat shoes for me (or almost flat).

I have to buy boots as well in autumn, mine are broken...

But other than that, I try to save up radically now for the few months...

I am so bored by my clothes😅

I got recognized at town...twice!!😭

"Oh you are working at that furniture shop...yes, the girl who wears these pretty dresses!!"..lmaoo

I promised to make my mums nails but they have visit over so I read next to our fish in our garden..

I try finishing that book over a month now (I read another book in the meantime).

I got a new box of hairdye too...

Will show you soon what I picked this time..might dye on monday🤔

Xoxo rinmero

Lil update + new nails

Hey hey,

 Me a few days ago lmao:

I wasn't lying when I said I M blonde again..

The red washed out so quickly.

My other two books arrived..or almost lets say.

Excitedd💕💕

And the other book was shipped, the package came, I open it and...it's a childrens book.

It had the correct sticker on, but wrong book.

Someone slept while doing their job.

So I have to shipit back now and hopefully they send the correct one.

How my dinners currently look like💕

A couple days ago I used these feet masks to get rid of my skin.

It is working fabulously.

A day or two after wearing it started peeling.

And the process is still not done yet.

Guess what, my living room is a warehouse again🤣🤣

Why? I planned new shelves.

I ordered from Ikea and they arrived today but my dad has to do the tapestry first.

Little tip: don't get the self-adhesive wallpapers.

They honestly were so bad, they shrunk after applying, so no matter how accurate I was, the next day there were all gaps and it already came off in the corners.

So I didn't want to continue do the whole wall and decided to just leave it now.

The bottom stuff can stay..when getting rid of the wallpaper on top I damaged the ones I had underneath and a little bit of these bottom ones as you can see but I don't care now because there will be the shelves anyway🤡

I tried taking off only the damaged parts of the wallpaper to save a bit of money honestly..

After the wallpaper my dad also finishes the kitchen and then I can show you THE KITCHEN TOO LMAO.

So much work but I doubt we will do it this week because my nieces baptism is this week.

well anyywaayy..new nails haha.

My friend suggested blue...the rest is freestyle.

But honestly they look veeery similiar to the another set I had in around November I think?

Look...reflective top coat💎

I am currently getting into my calm phase...or maybe it's just the aftermath of beeing so exhausted the past weeks I dunno.

I relax at nights and read more again🥰

Well, C ya.

Xoxo rinmero

Super tired

 The past days I did not want to wake up in the mornings at all...

It's getting great weather here tho.

Top/skirt/belt...Aliexpress

Coat..N/A

shoes...Deichmann

I didn't take many pics but I think this outfit looked nice so had to quickly take one.

Mint x ginger hair combo is so sweet.

The curling rods sometimes work, sometimes the don't

The hair is getting lighter and lighter with each wash hah...it's almost blonde again, just a different tone.

Some of my books arrived, I told you.

Now listenn...how oooften have I read online "If YoU rEaD tRuMpS bOoK yOu UnDeRsTaNd HoW hIs MiNd WoRkS"...so I got it now.

I liked Musks biography, so this one will be interesting too I think.

I also got the second book calendar girl now in german. I think I also told you guys, I got it as a teen und just decided to finish and now I wanted the second part, although I started a different book now.

There are two others missing from my order.

One is already shipped I saw and the other will come next month or smth.

Well, I am so tired again...heading to sleep.

Xoxo rinmero

I may be obsessed

 Someone take my oven away hahayhaba

After work I quickly went to the grocery store to get the stuff I need for the muffins.

My colleague suggested chocolate next.

I wanted to put strawberries in but they didn't have any, so I picked raspberries now.

I think it's even better, because they are smaller.

I poured coconut on top before putting it in the oven.

I couldn't try them yet, I am still full from dinner...maybe later as a snack.

Yesterday night I ordered new books (yes I am insane)..

They had 15% off for english books...I had to lmao.

But it is seperated into 4 or 5 deliveries in total, because they all have different shipping dates.

Will show you though..

Now I will read something before going to sleep💕

Xoxo rinmero

I did it

 

Baked the banana muffins haha...

At the evening I dyed my hair too

I wanted ginger but not intense, so decided to mix with the toffee blonde and just go for it "no risk no fun" yknow.

After cutting my hair...the before color.

I predicted a blonde with a red hue.

The dye looked so dark and red, I was like " oh oh"...but trust baby...trust haha.

Result.

In reallife it actually looks more red than ginger/orange as intended.

I am surprised how red it got..

Also tried different curling rods over night

I have to get used to it but I kinda like it.

I received a lot of compliments💕

It's a very unique color.

Xoxo rinmero

I am an old lady

 

Is it time for a little yapping? haha

So since one of my co-workers quit (she offered to stay until I come back from holidays, so the shifts are more manageable), we are only two women now and the secretary managed to make fixed shift schedules for us.

Which means for me, depending wether it's an even or an uneven week, I have fixed days for work...

not like it used to be: 2 days here, 3 there, this week I have thursday off, next tuesday...etc.

but for both cases I have always the monday off, despite today being a holiday.

To me that's cool...I actually prefer having a day off in the middle of the week than saturdays (I am crazy I know).

Since I came back from Singapore I am lazy...like, super super super lazy.

I don't do nothing.

I don't shop, I don't read, nothing...

I come back home, eat something, and stare into my apartment until I go take a shower and then to sleep or something and in the mornings I don't want to get out of bed.
I even barely wear makeup...I don't put on lashes anymore.
I get up so late, I can only put on some foundation, concealer and mascara.

I am surprised I managed to get some housechores done at all and I also baked but I think that was just because it was necessary.

My clothes were all due for laundry, my apartment was a mess and the blueberries would have gone bad lmao...but after that now I have no energy..

I instead think about many things going on.

For example there is a co-worker, who is always a little bit, Idk even how to describe it..

she would joke a lot about all men being horrible but at the same time, she tries to make other people become a couple or smth.

I think she actually does more damage.

She for example suggested that I would be a great couple with another guy at work and then criticize his relationship, who then started questioning his own relationship.

They are about to marry and they had a quiet time in their relationship at that moment, so she made him being unsure if he was doing the right thing.

He now told me, they have talked to each other and it's all good again but nonetheless, it was completely unnecessary of her.

On saturday (or friday?) same thing with another co-worker: She asked me why I didn't take him while he was still single right in front of him (he is muslim? We are good friends but there is nothing else).

And asked him if he can imagine marrying his girlfriend and live with her for 40-50+ years, which he agreed to.

I am glad he can manage her weird comments better than me, she irritates me a lot.

When we are alone, she always has to start that topic and ask me what my problem is, I am a pretty girl and why I can't find a man so on and so on.. and it is annoying.

It makes me feel super lonely too...normally I am quite happy and I rather wait patiently to meet someone that I really like than rush into something or hook up with random people.

However, I can' t stop thinking about how alone I am because of her and if there is something wrong with me and why I am still alone etc.

She makes things weird between me and my co-workers too, which are good friends to me.

I get presented like some product to them from her and they are happily taken, and even though I know they wouldn't join her weird "games" or whatever it is, it still feels like additional rejection to me if that makes sense? 

I wish she would just stop.

I am glad me and my co-workers can talk openly with each other about this, and they dislike it as well, so nothing weird between each other.

I also think about me and what I want to do and what my next plans are etc.

I wanted to start making art and become a writer but I got discouraged a lot over the past month..

I started to feel like I would be really bad at this too, just like I am bad at everything else I did in my life.

What also bummed me was how old I feel, despite being young.

Being in this class in singapore, we also had people my age of course...To me it felt like there were worlds that seperated us. They constantly would go out drinking and have fun and I wasn't the type for it. There were also moments where I just simply did not understand what they were talking about as well.
Instead, I came along very well with the people that were a lot older than me.
I enjoyed having conversations with them. The people my age are all about to study, or had their study breaks or similiar, while I have been in the workforce for a couple years already and you could tell by the mindset. While they were talking about what they wanna do, and plan and dream, I would think about duties, responsibilities etc. lmao

I had the opportunity to wear my short dresses again, as you have seen sometimes in my posts I could already upload, and even if you can't tell in the pictures, I felt incredibly insecure and uncomfortable.
I love gyaru and I love how super cute these dresses look but I maybe really have grown out of it?
I know I already had this talk on my blog, that I want to be more open to just wear what I want and not restrict myself to labels and all that, and I won't...but I also feel like dropping gyaru.
There are some things about it that I obviously still love (for example the long nails, the hairstyles and also partly the makeup) but other than that, I am not that type of person anymore I think.
I just feel stupid, because just a couple months ago I was so excited to step out again and wear gal and all that and now I realised again that I am not.
Also reading other gals blogs made me realise the same thing: They are into it, I am not anymore I guess. Although I like reading about other peoples passions!
Maybe it also has something to do with the loneliness I am currently dealing with. As a gyaru you have more or less a community in fashion, but when I am not, I feel like being alone again or that the contacts I have and like engaging with would drop me.

Maybe I am again in a turning point or something, where I need to grow out into my next phase ORRR I am having a midlife-crisis in my twenties.
Regardless, I am having mentally a rough time right now.

In the morning today I tried reading my blogs again, because I wanted to catch up with the others but these thoughts distract me a lot, so I felt like I had to make a break and just get it out of my chest for now.
I am still writing my singapore entries, which should be done soon because I am almost done and the next days I didn't take much pictures anymore and tried taking it more relaxed during my trip but still I have no energy to start uff...

Maybe, I should bake some muffins again to distract me xD...I have bananas that would turn bad lmao.

Day 12+13+14: National Gallery and Relaxing Days!

 

Yes I start to forget what happened on each of these days but half of the trip posts are done now <3

I didn't plan anything to do on this school day...I had late lessons and I was starting to get very tired from all the walking and doing.

Our teacher planned to go to Ikea with us, to practice talking with natives at the restaurant.

At first I thought she was kidding but no...she was serious!!

Especially the germans in our class were very nervous and like "ahh I don't want to bother anyone"...but there was no way around it 

She was like "you have to ask name, age, where is that person from..." etc. and made literally a list for us to ask.

As soon as it was my turn my head went BLANK...I forgot how to ask simple questions at this point lmao.

But I was surprised how nice these people were actually...

You can literally tell in this video how nervous I was T.T

but now rewatching it, I see she was very surprised when I told her I was german.

Either that was because her husband spoke to an american and she wondered why we are from different places, or she was just generally surprised to speak to a german...idk.

I was very surprised when she told me she was 45 and her husband is 60..!!

Everyone looks so young here...if you think someone is age XY, add like another 10-15 years on top wth.

For the evening I just pretty much relaxed and talked to Shelly, my host.

For this day I planned going to the National Gallery after school.

In the morning I had my normal mandarin classes.

I joined the others for lunch who went to the "corner guy"...they literally called that place like this.

Because it is right around the corner and very cheap.

For afternoon lessons I had my mandarin lecture class...which pretty much just involves sitting there and listening to stories, trying to understand as much as possible.

I missed my last lessons because I went to penang.

Topic was chinese mythology...which was very interesting but I also almost fell asleep as soon as the teacher darkened the room xD

And then I went on my way...the national gallery has some historical art but also newer modern pieces.

the building was so complex...it took me some time to find orientation.

If I remember correctly, I visited 4 exhibitions in total...

a historical singaporean one, asians in paris, Fernando Zobel and modern art.

Sometimes when looking at these old pictures, I think of these people in modern times...you can see similiar faces but then they had different lives.

Does that make sense?

I sometimes feel like I have already seen these faces but now they have different contexts..

In the same way like "Clothes make the man"..it made me notice how much we judge people by modern standards for appearance, but they always looked like this and have been different kind of people.

I hope I could explain myself a little bit here :/

Next Level: Asians in Paris.

I once had to sculpt a face and it was so damn hard....this looked so well done..you could literally picture this person in front of you.

At this point I more or less figured out how this building is structured..

you pretty much just go around and in the middle is this hall.

Next stop :)

This was so out of line for the exhibition.

I was baffled when I got to know this was made with a syringe!

I went to the galleries 1-14 after this...

The way he made all these people look evil really adds depth to the meaning

I somehow found this picture romantic...

I almost cried..felt for the lion here..

The emotions was captured very well here.

one of the halls had such an interesting look to it!

I think maybe back in the days this was used for court.

The air-conditioning was so extreme over there!!!

Even when wearing a little jacket, I wish I had a pullover..

I was freezing.

That's when the modern arts started..

I was staring at this creepy art piece so long...you need to zoom in..

it is actually very political, including topics like "free speech" and "deep state" if you look closer..

I almost overlooked it.

Same thing here...was staring at it for a long time.

Although I perceived it as offensive and anti-america..there was still something about it...

I can't pinpoint it but I agreed...

As someone not living in the USA, I am annoyed that the whole world follow every trend from over there... The US is not that great actually tbh.

I, for example, wouldn't want to live there.

I wonder what the artist actually meant with this picture.

this exhibition made me very depressed when walking through it..

why does modern art always have to be so negative ?

society of 2025 explained in one video.

After the museum visit I wanted to spend some time at Clarke Quay but be warned:

I knew the restaurants are tourist hotspots but that was another thing I haven't experienced before.

Right when I was walking into the street, every staff from every restaurant tried urging me into their space...the idea of a "calm dinner" was over...I passed like 4-5 restaurants when I tried ESCAPING this place through a side street.

I found it intrusive, pushy and simply put: too much!!

I walked towards back to school and ate dinner at a hawker there then.

the picture...

the food :D

But hey...it was very good. haha.

I went into the mall quickly to get new lens solution because my was empty and then headed home.

the lens solutions here were sooo expensive!!!

I was in shock, why did mine have to run empty here and not in germany T.T

and I found another scent of the dove peeling, of course I had to get it haha.

I didn't want to go shopping more but also I couldn't hold backkk..

I also took this powder now that I will try soon..

It's a lot bigger than my current one, but maybe also good.

When I tell you..I did not want to get out of bed at all...I was literally napping the whole time.

Shelly invited me for lunch with her family and I agreed coming.

They had to fix the light in my room before we went to a hawker at the mall in Yishun.

my new favourite drink: Bandung!

I forgot taking pics of the great food...I could try from all of it a little bit.

I have to admit the deer however tasted very different from deer here.

Her aunties look soo young...one was even 80!! she was fit like my mum wth...