2025年4月30日水曜日

lil makeup experiment

 

I was really feeling the color and wanted to do some makeup again <3

I have told you a long time ago that I have an idea but couldn't try it out yet?
I tried it out now..and I hate it haha.

Like, back in the days the gals would layer their lashes, right?
I thought about wearing striplashes on top and putting clusters underneath to give the front more volume.


1.I don't like these strip lashes...they poke my eyes everywhere
2.I don't like striplashes at all anymore haha
3.The clusters are barely visible...if at all..
4.other than that, I felt cute hehe





I also cut the striplash in half, to try gluing it on the outer half and leave the inner half of the upper lash with the clusters...a little bit better but still looked very bad tbh haha.

Well, at least now I know I don't like it.

my hair snapped yo

 COUNTDOWN: 3 DAYS LEFT!


I did my bleaching this morning...
the roots turned out very yellowish this time?
the back is like always but the front part...not so much?
I am not sure why, because I have done everything the same..


regardless...no risk no fun..
I mixed the two colors and we will see what turns out.


The roots looked way lighter than the rest of the hair...
I figured in a worst case scenario, I would need to do a root touch up with a darker color to fix it..
But at the same time it always looks like that when wet....sooo

It did end up more warm, like a honey-blonde at the roots but the rest of the hair?
Exactly. the. color. I. wanted...

Do you remember my toner experiments with the syoss toner?
THIS IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN PICTURING THE WHOLE TIME IN MY HEAD.


In reallife it looks even more beautiful...
So this WHOLE TIME I should have just mixed the toffee with vanilla and put it on (almost) platinum hair...and that would be IT.

Let's take a second to appreciate this color...

But I am gonna be honest with you...I did not expect it to turn out THIS light!
The vanilla diluted the toffee so much it was still kinda a level 8ish..that's crazy..

It sucks that I can't really enjoy the color now...here's why:

It was difficult to take a picture of it properly.
The very first row of my hair right at my neck snapped!
I know it's not the baby hair at my neck...it's actual hair, because it feels thick
and it is quite an amount I lost...They just broke off.
I mean I am glad it happened at the neck and not...at the top or something...yknow.
But if anything is a warning signal that says "girl, stop"...it definitely this.
Also considering my bangs are fried fried...
I am actually amazed how much of my hair is still quite intact but yea it has to stop.

I am not sure yet what I will do, because I actually would like to keep it this color?
For now I have decided to let it grow out a bit and also cut the dying..
but I just know, I will get hella sick of the roots...

My mum said it looks kinda green now...I don't see anything greenish? huh?

2025年4月29日火曜日

book gets and some yapping

 COUNTDOWN: 4 DAYS LEFT!


yesterday was my last working day and now my vacation has started...
I got a gift for my host family now from work...we have a variety of black forest themed gifts, so I figured these would be best. I took a magnet now and a gift set with a spoon that has a lasered Bollenhut in it with schinus berry spice.


The magnet has a lil pun on it:
,,die Kuh" means "the cow", but it sounds like "cool".
The magnet says "the "kuhl" black forest".


(how a Bollenhut looks like..also I love these women...these pics are all over the black forest)

I think this will be a great gift to take to singapore.

Today I figured I "lost" my package with the books I just ordered.
I knew it will only be 3 for now, because the 4th will be shipped seperately a bit later.
I received the notification it was loaded for shipping but never the notification that it has arrived?
So I thought I look in my box today and there it is...waiting for me the whole weekend :)


Now I have the third book of the before the coffee gets cold series and can continue! <3
The other two were on my wishlist for a while.
The 4th that is still missing will be shipped around end of may...so it means it will arrive just when I get back home from my trip.
It's "wednesday child" from yiyun li and I have seen it on pinterest, so I was curious now.

My mood shifts away from lolita inspo and back to gyaru now.
I think because most of these "casual lolita" clothings just suit so well for my work and I was in a flower power mood, I just went back to my other styles...also because most of my wardrobe already has these clothes.
I had quite some troubles finding new "gyaru"-inspired outfits every single day from what I already have...I need to do more shopping in this direction if I want to wear gyaru more often.
Most of the gyaru clothes I have are a bit short for work, or are ott hime.
I am not quite sure what I want to pack for singapore now...maybe both 50/50?.
Also because I haven't worn hime for a long time now.
I am really vibing with rokku gyaru lately but I have like 0,01% in my closet :(

I will dye my hair today or tomorrow (I am not sure yet).
I will try my experiment and mix my fav 07 toffee blonde color I already had with the 08 vanilla blonde that I have on my head now.
Here a little comparison:


here I have also used the toffee blonde.
Both are from 2021...

and the vanilla blonde I have now:




both are dyed on pre-lightened hair.

Vanilla is a bit too light for me now, it bores me, it want it darker.
Toffee is a bit dark for my taste, it would pretty much  ruin all the effort to lighten it to this point.

So, I wish for something inbetween?



It's difficult to show a picture where it has the color but I also don't want to have any "expectation" and then be dissappointed if it's not exactly the color.
I want something inbetween, that's it haha.
But here are two colors where I think it could end up, depending wether the darker toffee pigments are more dominant or the vanilla pigments.
I also don't mind having warm hair now...even tho I have my purple shampoo for that, I prefered the color when it was warm than matte on myself...interesting haha.

I also need to do my nails...
I had to get them off because the stability wasn't given anymore, I just have a small nailbed and to keep my nails on for longer than 3 weeks is just too much.
It was constantly bending over my finger.
But it was also too early to make new ones.
It has been the first time after almost 3 years that I had no nails on for longer than a couple hours.
I have realised three things in the meantime
1. I immediately started biting again...my nails are bleeding like crazy and it hurts. I just can't stop.
2.I can't function without them. Even simple things like getting forks and knives out of the drawer has been almost impossible to me.
3.I hate it. xD

Since I am not sure what I want to wear in Singapore, I have decided now to go for a more "natural" look considering the colors, but I want deco again...I yearn for the decooo...T.T
maybe nude or pink, with glitter and a bunch of diamond clusters again haha.
For the length I need to check which ones I have...I have in my mind, that the 2xl stiletto were empty? So I have to check which ones I can use...but I prefer longer now.
Also I want a mix of almond and round shape...I might use a stiletto and get rid of the sharp tip.

 I am not sure wether I will keep my bangs or not.
It's crazy how incredibly damaged they are...they are fried AF!
The difference between my haircare and no heat on my lengths vs. less care and daily heat on my bangs is INSANE.
I mean they are fried, literally...I like bangs but they are also high maintenance in the morning.
I might grow them out for curtain bangs or something...I like how it shapes my face, so I will not go completely without bangs I think but I need to get the right cut for me.

My language school has send me a reminder e-mail now with all the information I was looking for the past days. I kind of feel bad now for nagging so much in my last post. I guess I am really really getting nervous now but it has been the same way when I went to Mallorca.
Even when arriving, I first had a really bad LOW but after a few hours I was relaxed again.
Hope it's going to be the same way.
I am excited to post about my trip <3







2025年4月25日金曜日

meeting friends

 COUNTDOWN: 8 DAYS LEFT!


yesterday I went to McDo with my friend after work <3
I didn't feel like taking pictures...

I am currently so numb...
I don't have the energy to do anything, maybe it is because of the nervosity.
It feels to me like I am frozen.

I met with another friend today!
Hanging with her pulled me up a bit.
She just has this energetic character that makes you excited, no matter what.


In the morning I went for a walk with my dog and he chilled with me in my apartment for a while.
I think it's so funny how he likes my carpet...
This space could be completely blocked, except for a tiny corner and he still would lay there...

Even though I had no energy to actually style up or something, I somehow managed to put on makeup and even lashes lmao..


I took the picture after I was back home because I forgot taking one when leaving.

My plan was looking for a gift for my host family and we walked through the mall together but I couldn't decide.
It's tricky to take a gift for someone you don't even know?
wine? - drinks no alcohol. meat? - vegetarian. flowers? - is not their taste.

You'll never know xD

I saw a couple interesting things I could take but I couldn't decide now and will sleep over it a bit.
But of course I took something for me T.T
Because I know the taste of THAT girly very well haha
a super duper cute hello kitty cup!!
next to it the lash glue I needed, which was the reason we went to the shop in the first place.
I love the black lash glue from kiss <3


The cup is sooo adorable!
I drink my hot chocolate out of it rn.

We ate at the asian restaurant there, where I often go for lunch...apparently she has never been there.
I chose my bun bo nam bo again haha.



She agreed with my fortune cookie...
lmao.


I agreed with her fortune cookie :))

We then decided to go to kaufland next, in hope to find maybe a gift there but I didn't have my hopes high...
plus...she needed ricepaper anyway so..


We found the adapter there I will need..I almost didn't see it.
Luckily my friend has the eyes of an eagle.
When looking for her ricepaper I saw they now offered mochis! <3
There are rarely good mochis here in our area so of course I had to try now.
They taste soo good! :)

The next couple days I need to do a huge laundry-job, start packing and planning, dye my hair, do my nails...and one last time to my job at monday..
puhhh...I know I should be excited but I am really getting anxious now...

2025年4月23日水曜日

Trip to Singapore with EF: Booking and before the trip!

COUNTDOWN: 10 DAYS LEFT!

 

Here's a few points I want to talk about my trip that happened before my trip hehe.

First of all: price transparency while researching.

I know a lot of schools etc. don't offer clear pricing before you ask for an arrangement but I absolutely hate this tbh. Sometimes you just want to know how much you would approx. need but maybe don't have any savings now? When I asked for an offer...they included that I had to book it within a timespan.

This is frustrating because, everybody who worked or had experience in sales will get me, you get pressured to buy. Of course, they need the sales.

You are given no chance to at least have some small info before-hand..it immediately starts with an offer and an absolute price to take just now.

I hope I explained my issue well enough?

I wish I had the option to calculate approx. prices online before having to insert my data anywhere or give dates.

I spontaneously decided to just go for it but had to save FOR the trip after booking, which was insane and probably explains to you why I continually had this pressure to save.

Another point that made me mad even more; They just added a fee in the middle of it and called it currency exchange surcharge, because the exchange from SGD to EUR changed a lot in the meantime.

I checked with my co-worker: since the date of my booking it DID NOT CHANGE AT ALL or not much to justify a surcharge.
They charged me an additional 100€ just like that.

Something I also wondered: after you book, you're left alone....completely.

I had no person in charge, just bots...which is just sad in customer service terms.

I had to figure everything out myself about the trip, the only information are very general and because most people that use EF's service are minors, they are also written for a minor level.

I know I am an adult and technically that should be do-able for me, it's just that I don't travel often and especially not so far away, or outside of the EU. Plus, it just makes someone very anxious.

I wanted to use a travel agency for example to not have to care about these things and have someone in charge that I can ask when I have questions. As a backup you could say.

None of the information that was available, was regarding a trip to Singapore specifically.

It doesn't take much to have like a little information website just for Singapore and then update consistently and check if information is still accurate.

-What vaccines do I need?

-What preparations do I need to take regarding SG Arrival Card?

-Am I able to pay with card or is cash typical?

-What kind of public transport is available? what kind of costs do I need to expect?

I for example found out just days before my trip, they have different sockets over there and I will need an adapter.

These are all relevant information and maybe I am too picky and there's a misunderstanding but I think as a Travel agency, also as a language school, there should be such information be provided.

It's unreasonable if I pay for a service and have to investigate for everything.

Like I have mentioned in one blog post...not even ChatGPT mentioned the SG Arrival Card...No source ever mentioned this!! It was only logical, so I am mad knowing despite all the attempts of me trying to figure out if I need to do something before my trip, none of the sources gave me this important info.

Communication about the accommodation was also lacking.

It mentioned the option of a single room instead of a dormitory (or similiar) but it wasn't communicated while booking that this would mean, that I will be staying with strangers in their home.

I am fine with it, I see advantages in this, but I wish I had known before booking.

Maybe I would have chosen otherwise...?? idk.

I imagined something like an airbnb for example.

That's another problem resulting of the lack of "specific" information I mentioned.

Everywhere it says "typically" or "for destination xy" (which is not yours of course) and you don't know for sure if it means for you too. That's how I think this misunderstanding happened.

Also, maybe it's because while booking, I have spoken with the saleswoman on the phone and told her I don't want to stay with other people -> so I naturally assumed I will have my own space.

But maybe that's also a misunderstanding because, again, usually this service is for minors and of course minors won't stay alone.

If that's the case, they need to improve on their program for people 25+ years old.

(I wonder now...I have seen they offer language courses for seniors as well, do they also receive pdfs considering "no alcohol or smoking prohibitions" and rules regarding "to be home after 10pm"? Honestly guys, I felt like I was yeeted back to high school reading those.)

Another point, also regarding having no person in charge after your booking, are the planned activities (optional).

I finally could view them approx. 10 days before my trip and they offered a weekend-trip to malaysia.

They mentioned the price BUT also have written in the description that the price of the flight is not included, but also state in the description when the flight takes place.

So here's the problem: I want to book but I don't know, will the school tell me the price for the flight later on? do I need to book myself? Will the school book for me? 

THERE IS NO OPTION TO CONTACT ANYBODY. No E-Mail nothing...just a number.
There is a time difference of 6 hours between Germany and Singapore, that doesn't seem a lot at first but they are not open the whole day...it's a very tiny timeframe I could dial the number...and also of course, it falls within my working times. I would have preferred at least having an E-Mail as an option to take contact with them.

I was able to find a way to contact somebody, hidden in the app somewhere (which is unclear in general). The trip was booked out by then and I haven't received an answer on time.

As you can see, I hoped there would be a better connection between customer/student and language school/EF. Maybe all these points are the reason why I was so extremely nervous and anxious.

They offered information calls on zoom, but of course only once (!) in a month and it's when I need to work. I was lucky I could take place in one coincidentally because they gave me a day off and here again: the info provided is VERY GENERAL. It wasn't the kind of info call I expected or hoped for.

These are all very negative and sad points I know.

I can only remember when I took my first trip alone to Mallorca with TUI - they took care of everything! the flight, the transfer and even the communication while your stay over there.

They told you exactly what to do and where to go and what you need etc....and that was during covid!!
I for example received notifications on my phone, when they pick me up and what I need to know during my stay. I received immediately a message on my phone when they changed the laws regarding travel.

Since It was still in EU, I of course didn't need much info compared to Singapore.

But other than that -  I received the customer service I paid for over there. Even with only digital information and just bots.

Wow, I personally am surprised myself about how many negative points I could get together now.
I need to stop nagging and calm down lmao...I hope it's going to be a lot better from now on.

I am verrrryy curious, but considering all these things..the trip has to be completely worth it to make me consider rebooking with them. I technically were interested in different destinations as well.

Maybe it's all part of growing up and I just need to stop acting a diva and be a bit more independent and learn to manage things on my own.
Maybe I am just spoiled with good customer service experiences.

I don't want to start my trip negative like that.

Also, I might try and look for making a weekend-trip to malaysia by myself...it gave me the idea now.


Edit: The language school has send me a remind e-mail now with all the important things approx. 5 days before the trip. It is clear to me now, that I was getting incredibly nervous while writing this post.

2025年4月22日火曜日

nervosity goes up

COUNTDOWN:  11 Days left!

I am getting more nervous with each day because of my trip...
ahhh...

Today at work was pretty calm..
I saw an ad from Thalia for buying 4 english books and get one for free...so of course I had to grab it now...and get the third book of the coffee gets cold series hahaha...
I also used their feature again, picking the cheapest option (lmao).
so I get 4 books now for aprox. 35€...shipping free...good deal or nah? xD
I think it was a great deal haha..


Team natural the past days...I just can't be bothered with anything else rn.
Also I am still lacking energy...maybe it is the nervosity??

dress...Forest Wardrobe
socks...42lolita
everything else...AliEx

I got a bill today and now I am sad :((
one part of me is glad it came before my trip so I can pay on time, the other part is mad it didn't came after my trip xD

I read through some of the FAQ of the language school again and I am also mad that, no matter which pdf or faq or introduction livestreams etc. I looked up...NO WHERE it mentioned I need to sign up a SG Arrival Card before my travel.
I kinda had it in the feels, it just felt weird because I need no visa (which is still correct) but it felt wrong...like I was missing something.
I was thinking "It's impossible that I can just....go?".
Even when looking up online on some travel website, or talking with chatgpt about it.
How the hell was it possible it was never mentioned??
I found out now I need to do this approx. 3 days before my trip..so I am curious now if the school will mention it in some reminder e-mail.

Another kindaa con is the following:
They uploaded the activities they offer and one is a weekend trip to malaysia...that I want to book.
However they mention in the description flights are not included BUT mention at what times the flights are (?).
There is NO WAY to contact the school at all...so I have no possibility to ask if and where I have to book them seperately?.
I just don't want it to get booked out while I have to figure it out.


2025年4月20日日曜日

easter with my aunt

 

yesterday we sat together with the close family and today with the bigger circle at my aunts house.

I forgot to take pictures of the food...there was so much..it was soo good.

I really liked the "Dubai"-baked goods my aunt baked.

At first I didn't feel like styling up...I am surprised I could manage putting make-up on and doing my hair at all haha.


It was pretty cold but I did not want to wear a thick jacket again, so I chose a cardigan.
I actually didn't take it off then haha.

cardigan/accessories/shoes...AliEx
dress...C&A

I took a salad with me, because my mum forgot it at home and I didn't think of putting it in a plastic bag...although I drove very carefully and calm..it was impossible...
my car seat was covered in the salad liquids..

When driving home just now it smelled so bad...I first cleaned it T.T
I hope it somehow worked...it was quite difficult to get rid off.

Now I want to read my blog list and after that I want to choose a book..
I have 4 books that wait for me to finish them and I am not in the mood for none xD
I am really not sure wether I open another one or nah haha.


2025年4月19日土曜日

42lolita order

 


After waking up and eating breakfast I took a quick shower.
I don't want to wear makeup today or use any heat on my hair to give my skin and hair a break.
I needed to get to the post office until 12am to pick up my package from 42lolita I have told you about!
I had to pay customs now but that's fine.

necklace...AliEx
cardigan...Takko
dress...Takko
(shoes...AliEx)

I took the picture now after coming back, I wore my usual white sneakers I have been wearing the past weeks.

I was so excited opening up my package!
I made myself a coffee and started unpacking everything.


They included a tiny gift <3


so adorable!!!
Honestly this is such a great gift.
I don't like when they put in these plastic combs, hairties or these velcro hairstyling tools... most of the time they always end up in the trash!
But I actually wanted to get socks like these and technically you always need socks.
It's also unflashy, so it suitable to many kinds of tastes.
I think it's quite difficult putting flashy gifts in that the customer might dislike.


The package was getting quite big at the table, so I decided to switch to bedroom and unpack on my bed.
It was like unpacking little surprises each time.
I didn't read the description well enough it seems, because I expected only top and skirt.
However I received the whole set!!

The set is from Garden Cat.
I have seen it months ago at devilinspired but hesitated to buy.
I regret not buying it a lot and was searching for it for quite some time.
(there is another set from a different brand I regret not buying...maybe I'll find too or use the service at 42lolita to buy it for me)

little bow for the corset and necklace.
I wish the necklace was with a chain, but luckily it wasn't so difficult tying it at the back.


I guess this is the veil for the head. 
I have not figured out yet how to wear it but I have an idea!!!
I have some basic hairclips that I wanted to use to make DIY-hairclips when I was into hime gyaru a lot.
I could, technically, glue it on to make it easy to attach.
But since it is with embroidery, I don't want the clip to be seen too much.
I will look up if it's possible somehow (or I will just add pearls on it?).


The train for the back


I am not sure how this is called...it is a mix of apron and train haha.
I first was unsure how to wear it and had to look up the picture again to figure it out.
I tied it in the front and put the bands into the skirt to hide them.


the hairband that has super cute jewels on each side.



and then I finally took out the top and skirt.
There are different versions of this set and I have chosen the one with the long skirt and the corsage.


look at the glittery details of the skirt!!!



The top is so damn adorable!!

Here is a "casual" variant to wear the set-up:


There is a little gap at the back of the dress if I wear it like this.
Maybe because my torso is just too tall.
I felt comfortable cutting the tag now and wanted to wear the whole set with my pettycoat now.
I am not sure if the pettycoat I own matches that well but at least it doesn't look bad I think.

When I tell you: I wish I had help to get dressed for this haha.
It's so difficult to put everything on and it took me a while to figure out how I could do it on my own.
The most difficult thing was the train with the bow.
I decided I want to put it on the corset to cover the "gap" at the back.
It's almost impossible putting safety needles in ON YOUR OWN BACK.
I decided to put them on before putting the top on my body.
It made everything a lot tighter though and I almost ripped it.
I need a different solution...or just put one needle in, put on the top and secure only the other side while wearing....that might work.


the bow looks so damn adorable.



Et voilá!
It's only provisional to get a vision how it will look like.
It's not an actual outfit yet..but it looks super pretty right?


Tried my best to show the outfit with the movements.

AND SOME MORE DETAILS





I am so damn happy I decided to get it now! <33

I was in the mood for more princessy looks, so I took my hime clothes (mostly Jesus Diamante) out of my boxes and hung them up in my closet.
I also took out of the closet some skirts that I haven't worn for ages.
Maybe I will get rid of them...one looks pretty rubbish by now, so I probably won't wear it anymore.

We are going to sit with the family in the afternoon, so I need to get up and see if I can help them prepare some things.