going to write some more

 Heyaa!

So I left work earlier today because I didn't feel well..it looks like I undercooled myself again.

I seriously don't know what to do...I pretty much work with all kinds of prevention to not have these issues all the time, especially because I know I get this more easily since I am a child.

That's why I wanted to get my blood checked and all, I don't want this to be something chronically and I have to deal with all my life but the doctor didn't find anything last time and when I suggested going further into a different direction I just got dismissed by one of the helpers.

What do I pay healthcare for if we don't receive any?

(Unfortunately all doctors are like this, so switching doesn't work).

So I spend my time today under a blanket.

I did do another vitamin c mask yesterday and the red pigments are almost completely off.

It really is just the same blonde I had with a copper shade that can be easily changed with the right dye.

I got them in the mail last evening..

The bottle looks so small...Chris made great suggestions for what bleach to take and all that but it is just very expensive for me atm..sorry T.T

so I decided for these now...which are still pricier than the stuff I used before but at least I save up on bleach powder, I will be using the same as before but with less developer.

Like I mentioned in one of my earlier posts, I got these professional dye and will mix it to achieve the color I desire.

I am suuper excited to use these. Maybe I won't go back to box dye after that?

I enjoyed writing my last post and currently I feel like distracting myself with just writing about some things going on in my head and all and let ChatGPT give me suggestions for other topics...there were reaaallllly good ones.

I have like 10 drafts now with ideas to write on.

I titled one of my earlier post "low mood high energy" and then didn't even talk about it LMAO.

But yea, since a couple days my mood is really low and I feel sensitive about a lot of things.

Writing about gyaru and just what makes me passionate was a good distraction, also thinking about some funny memories and all that. For you guys they were words and stories but to me I can see the pictures when telling, the bright smiles of people that go "Wow" about my nails and all that.

Idk how and when I will post some of the things I will write on the next few days but since I am mostly home then, I won't have anything else to post so be prepared LOL.

xoxo rinmero