No nails

Hellow!

I swear, It's not like I have adhd.

Maybe I do, Idk...but I have good reasons.

I will not make my nails long anymore.

I took my old design off yesterday night and prepped it with base coat and was able to have a good look on my damaged nails.

I knew how damaging it is and all that but I always believed "If I don't want them anymore, I just let the damaged nails grow out and I will be fine"...apparently not so easy.

I fell down a rabbithole last night and some damages are PERMANENT.

Onycholosis or overgrown hypochonia for example.

I probably got the terms wrong but anyway.

Since I am very transparent as you know, I will show and explain to you!

The result of overfiling.

Luckily it is only this nail with this severity but yes I do file quite much off from my natural nail out of two reasons:

1. Better adhesion

2. I have a small nailbed, after 4 weeks almost half the nail is grown out..so I dont file off over and over again over the same place.

That's also why I have the bad "damage" at the free edge...it's the oldest part.

Doing this has two risks:

1. As pictured, onycholosis happens. The nail detaches from the finger.

Happened multiple times for me, luckily grows out but is dangerous with extensions because if the part is big and you hit your finger somewhere, it can rip off the natural nail entirely.

I knew that and did it regardless (yes I am insane)

2. This is a new info I didn't know: even if you still have a nail...if you file off too much the product still has contact with your skin.

Allergies, Irritation and Infections can happen.

Thats why they say to only use Buffers (the square nail blocks). They are usually 220/240 grit and for my taste I hated using them but will reconsider here. Apparently even Buffer are kinda damaging to your nail, especially if you use it harshly or too often.

I use 180 grits...with an e-file.🤡

Ok I get it..I won't do it anymore.

You can also see a big red/brown part on the pic which leads me to the next part.

Don't ask me about the term...it's super long and I will never ever be able to pronounce it.

However it is due to mechanical and chemical processes. And the big one on my other hand is probably due to trauma from hitting the nail somewhere. It is like little internal bleeding.

The consequence of ignoring it would be, that it can get bigger, or even turn black...and the nail will fall off.

Another thing is, I am sure this is due to my nails BUT brown stripes like this are also sign of cancer.

Let's assume I get additional ones due to cancer...I would have ignored it and brushed it off to be a nail design thing.

This was difficult to capture.

Another thing is an overgrown hypochonia (?) which is basically the skin under the nail that is overgrown due to no free edge and having a thick hard extension on top.

I also ignored this because it didn't bother me so far.

You know what could happen? Permanent nerve damage.

Imagine in a couple years I decided I don't want to wear nails anymore but now will forever have pain in my fingers because they are too sensitive.

It is also really hard apparently to get rid of it too.

Could take several months.

I cut off as much as possible but some is already grown into my finger and would bleed if I cut it.

I tried to show here with my thumb because it is the most brutal here. I think you can see the 2-3 points at the free edge which are reddish.

That's because that is my flesh right there.

I was able to picture this later.

Here you can see it more clearly from a different POV I guess.

Left is normal, how it is supposed to be.

Right is overgrown...it's literal skin there.

I didn't take pics of my pinky now on the left hand but it literally broke horizontally right in the flesh (also happened multiple times already because of hitting the nail somewhere accidentally).

I chose to still put a manicure on now because my own nails are wayy to thin and I have already prepped it anyway.

It is flexible so it might solve the issue with the overgrown skin.

I will see what happens with the brown stipes over time when I won't rub off layers of nail like crazy anymore and adjust it to that.

I have seen it is still possible to have manicures with gel polish/shellac...so I will see about that.

I used the Classic Nude to try again application and to cover up the damage without dragging too much attention to my nails since they are not in a good shape.

I still don't like these colors xD

But from a far it looks fine.

I will see how it progresses and keep you updated.

It is so weird to have short nails and the free edge hurts because of the overgrown skin..I have to look up how to push it back.

It felt like heartbreak last night...preparing myself mentally to let go of the long nails.

I didn't think I would take it so bad xD

It felt like losing part of my identity and thought about how I could still do it or wear them and whatever.

I accept I cannot wear long nails anymore.

But maybe I can still do designs for fun, since I like doing nails and then it hit me.

Basically the solution to my problems and it could be so easyyy.

I will make Press-Ons :O

(YES I DID NOT CAME UP WITH BEFORE I AM SORRY).

It is exactly what I want...do nails for fun and getting extra cash.

Since I don't use on people I can use whatever products I want.

I am so not a genius xDDDDDD

Technically I would just need packaging...

The ring light is perfect for making pictures of the nails tho.

Does anyone want any? xD

Hehehe

xoxo rinmero